I felt like I could die about ten minutes ago. I felt really weak and volnerable. Then it hit me. Why the hell am I so afraid; Why are all of us so afriad??? We hide all these things from eachother because we worry what someone is going to think. Don't you get tired of living that way? Don't you want someone to like you, love you, and care ( Read more... )

By the way...I have a few questions ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like going right and sometimes left...and other times like I want to spin around in cirles until I feel ready to puke and then I want to lay in the grass in the warm sun and let myself feel grounded even though everything is spinning around me. I want to find a greener pasture to live in where the grass is a little taller and the ( Read more... )

Amazing

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting I guess...for lack of a better term (it sounds too misunderstood-starving artist to me, but oh well). Lindsey, I'm so freakin blessed to have you as a best friend, you've really helped pull my sorry butt out of a big slump. Everyday it gets better, you're right, and I'm so glad that I have you ( Read more... )

I kind of felt like a part of my confidence and feedom and my childhood, like my ability to be myself and be okay with that died with her. But then I realized, she's spent my whole life trying to make me see that it was in me and not in other people that I found those things. It just doesn't feel like I should hurt this bad since I know that she' ( Read more... )

I appologize if you feel like I've been impatient with you or like I've been ignoring you. This isn't for anyone in particular, just in general. There has been a lot of stuff going on that has been pressing a little heavy on my mind so I've been kind of out of it. Plus, I've been burried under a pretty constant stream of homework since the ( Read more... )

You Are Esmerelda!

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My swing dance instructor goes to my chruch! How cool was that. It made my day. My day other than that, and "Tiggering" with Martin sucked. If you want to know ask and if I feel like you really want to know or that I really want to tell you, I will. Otherwise, everyone's got stuff going on and I'm not going to bitch about it here, I've got a ( Read more... )

I just feel out of place for some reason. I feel far away from everything except the parts of myself that I don't want to be. If you think I'm being a crap-face I appologize, it's not you.