oye. the confusion over takes my mind again. as i return to the cycle of HELL. ok. ok. ok. so its not hell. its just stupid of me to do this. again. but i cant help it. theres just something about it thats comforting. its like a really SCREWED UP safty net. we are only using each other anyway. for this comfort that is felt. so maybe it wont be so ( Read more... )

what is going on this week ( Read more... )

im crushed by others lack of motivation. i can not move forward with others when they want to stay put. my friends dont call me. ive fallen off the face of the planet. self depricating thoughts tend to run threw my mind these days. and nobody likes those. myself especially ( Read more... )

i was left with traces of a headache and an extreemly large dent in my mom's car after phill's 18th birthday gathering extraviganza. due to the multiple cloves that i smoked and the fact that phil backed his mother's van into my mother's car. hanging out was nice. even if everyone was a bit buzzed but i. although all those blacks that i chained ( Read more... )

(yay. for lists?)Things im tired of:

• arrogance.
• self-centeredness.
• broken promises.
• people trying to hard.
• others not trying hard enough.

its 3am. and im still on this computer which is slowly rotting my brains out. it doesnt help that this insomnia is boring me to death. i've joined communities, edited and uploaded pictures, and chatted with my fellow insomniacs. who all are really just a bunch of pansies cause they've off and gone to bed. leaving me to my own devices, which i ( Read more... )

im stuck.
in this house.
alone.
for the whole week.
with nothing but vh1 to keep me company.
i love the 90's:1990!!!!!!!!
<3333333
someone visit me.
abduct me.
something.
im lonely.


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"and if i do not win this persecution the hollywood celebrities will persecute my sister and her daughter. and as i have said before i am old and have a weak heart..."


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time for a steriotypical entree
cause im feeling like shit.
why?
dunno. depressions doesnt have reasons.
the randomness frusterates me.

i feel like...
eating loads of icecream.
curling in a ball.
watching bad tv shows.
i think sex&thecity is on tonight...

my mc.greggers visited me. <33333333333333333333333333
and philly!!!!!!<3333333333 ( Read more... )

and cinderella will be my name. and my kingdom of doom is with the wicked witch. and all i have is my paper and pencils to sketch my night-mares. which over come like alcohol poisoning and gives me feelings of nausia. i will never breath outside air. artificial light will give my eyes away to blindness.

( things you dont care about but keep me awake at night )