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Fake I amX: How was tryouts?
xDelicate1: idn undescribable
xDelicate1: all i know is im very unhappy
Fake I amX: Why?
xDelicate1: i dont fit in there..
Fake I amX: Oh please! Today you were all excited about how you were going to make it and how nice the girls were.
xDelicate1: idn mel.. when we started grouping off i had nobody i knew when we had to pick partners i had nobody
xDelicate1: i just feel like crying and not going back
Fake I amX: Did you talk to anyone? Did you ask anyone to be your partener?
xDelicate1: yea
xDelicate1: they all had people..
xDelicate1: these girls are the tanning booth going belly button pericing rich snobby im better then you kind of girls
xDelicate1: i just wanna get thru these tryouts
xDelicate1: it was the longest two hours ofmy life
Fake I amX: Dude.. What did I freaking tell you!
xDelicate1: idn what did you tell ,e?
xDelicate1: me*
Fake I amX: That they were those kind of girls, But NOOO! Noboday listens to Mel.
xDelicate1: i knew they were those kind of girls but i wanted to cheer..and i still want to..
Fake I amX: Then go to a ghetto place.
xDelicate1: mel i cant
Fake I amX: It means more there then the places that askes for alot of money
xDelicate1: i cant just stop and drop everything n go somwehere else
Fake I amX: Ok.. People who cheer-to chear and not to look like a slutfuck really are beter.
Fake I amX: you want to cheer-to cheer
Fake I amX: so go to a place that does that.
xDelicate1: they do mel.. look maybe i shouldnt be talking to you about this.. im sorry but your not helping me
xDelicate1: your just making me feel worse
Fake I amX: Im not telling you this stuff to make you feel better, Nik! Im telling you because its the truth.
Fake I amX: You do it all the time with me.
xDelicate1: u dont know the truth mel.
Fake I amX: About Tim.
xDelicate1: you wouldnt no anything about this
Fake I amX: How do you know?
xDelicate1: please dont fight with me.
xDelicate1: im soo upset right now
Fake I amX: Im not fighting. If you want to cheer, Nik, Then cheer. Do your thing. Dont look at anyone else around you. Pay attention and do your thing. If you need a partner. Ask a leader to put you with one. You guys done even have to talk. If this is as important as it is to you.. you should go down that road without a rear-view mirror.
xDelicate1: i know its just hard to be excited about something when u know your going there with no body to talk to and if you mess up people laugh and when your back is turned people talk because they dont know you and your different.
xDelicate1: im soo self consious and you know that..it just makes things harder
Fake I amX: Do you really care what they say or do. Your there to cheer. Not to listen to the snobs
xDelicate1: when u dont have your friends
xDelicate1: i know..but you know how i get when people talk about me
Fake I amX: Niki you need to get over this!
Fake I amX: Its making you stressed
Fake I amX: upset
Fake I amX: dont be like this
Fake I amX: you are who you are and if people dont like it then fuck them!
xDelicate1: i know.. its just hard to have that kind of attitude..these girls are just so good and so pretty
Fake I amX: so what?
Fake I amX: your good. your pretty
Fake I amX: but does it really matter how pretty you are?
xDelicate1: sort of..they sorta click that way
xDelicate1: n the way its lookin for me is im with the girls with frizzed hair out about 5inches and whos guts hangin over there shorts and they think they're attractive
Fake I amX: um.. so?
Fake I amX: i do that!
xDelicate1: u do not mel..
Fake I amX: im bigger then you. If I went you would feel a whole lot batter
Fake I amX: better*
Fake I amX: thats how i feel all the time at the skatepark.
Fake I amX: but i dont care.
xDelicate1: i would feel better not because i think im prettyier then you (which i dont) i would feel better because i would have someone there with me
Fake I amX: i go there to skate
xDelicate1: to talk to and to luagh with
Fake I amX: your not there to talk and laugh, nik!
xDelicate1: i know..but for tryouts theres alot of waiting going on and i cant really practice for my turn because the really good girls will sit there and watch me and as soon as i mess up...
Fake I amX: so what ::hits head really hard::
Fake I amX: this isnt getting through to you at all.
Fake I amX: I dont understand. I will trip.., fall, get shit on my shirt, hit my head on a locker in gym, and slip all in one day. I dont care. I dont see why the hell you do?
Fake I amX: People are just people niki. There not gonna kill you because your not as good at them.
Fake I amX: the worst you could get is a :No:
Fake I amX: in ANYTHING in life
Fake I amX: whether it be asking a guy out or trying out for something
Fake I amX: Take risks. If its not going to kill you, why not?
Fake I amX: And your probably not getting any of this..
Fake I amX: nevermind.
xDelicate1: i am i just cant be like you..
xDelicate1: i wish i could be
xDelicate1: i wish other peoples oppinions didnt bother me like they do
xDelicate1: i wish i could be fearless and know who i am and what i wnat and how im gonna do i
xDelicate1: it*
xDelicate1: but i can't, and im just not that kind of person in the beginning
xDelicate1: it takes me a while to feel confortable
xDelicate1: around new people
Fake I amX: what if you never get comfortable?
Fake I amX: tryouts are only 2 days
xDelicate1: i know and after tryouts things will get better
xDelicate1: i wont stick out as much being the only not wearing RSA stuff
xDelicate1: i wont be the only one not wearing there hair like everybody else
xDelicate1: and ill be with people at my own skill level
Fake I amX: I know you know these lyrics - ::Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?::
xDelicate1: yeah i know them
Fake I amX: think about em.
xDelicate1: i will
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