dear Lord ( Read more... )

dear Lord,

help me to find a way to cope
teach me the value of patience
show me the path to happiness
guide me into peace
lead me away from temptation
calm me during this storm
shelter me from defiance
love me in spite of shortcomings
direct me into Your Presence
take me when You come again

in Jesus name i pray,
amen

p.s.- please?

so, the doctor told me over the phone that i had said thrush, however, i felt so shitty that i just decided to go ahead and go back to the emergency room where a blood test showed that i actually have mono. currently, i'm deciding which building is high enough to jump off.

as a direct result of the antibiotic i'm taking for my tonsillitis, i now have oral thrush, a fungus of the mouth that usually only occurs in babies and the elderly. who wants to read my eulogy next week? that privilege will be given to the highest bidder.

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in case you didn't think that i meant it...

i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you

i'm feeling real emo today...

i don't want to leave
i want to stay
your mom doesn't even want me to leave
*sigh*
i'm so conflicted
i need to smoke a fuckin clove
these fuckin withdrawl headaches are a bitch and a half
i dunno if i'm physically prepared to quit smokin cloves
it's too hard
plus i don't really want to....not really

it felt wonderful to be in your arms again,
no matter how brief

this is one of those moments where i feel abandoned and alone. a point in time where space does not exist. there's only lauren. and nothing there to keep her from killing herself [emotionally].what makes me so annoyed by these thoughts and feelings is simply the fact that i am not alone. i might be physically [geographically dislocated] but that is ( Read more... )

i've updated too many times today already ( Read more... )