so i don't understand how a goal that i had means nothing to me now
i have reached it
and i feel worse than i thought
this is stupid
nothing is going to please me
i doubt i'll ever be good enough for myself
the amount of care that i give to myself is so low
i have another option
and im so close to going there
i think it's the only way

effortlessly

i just cut a side of my hand open and it kinda hurts

my hair is NOT fried
deep conditioner can do wonders for dyed hair
today should be good
i have to type my essay now

maybe i'll write an actual update.
yeah.
hm
i suck at life
school was alright
my hands are freezing as usual
i have 16 days to get to my goal
i get to spend the weekend after next at the opryland hotel
this will hurt
but it works
i want the new grand theft auto
i should take pictures sometime today
this isn't an update
it's just a gay list.

my chin is up
i can look out my window and see a perfect sky
even if it is gray
i can see the beauty in it.
all around it
i can take my camera and picture nature at it's finest
i can capture the beauty i feel inside
i can represent it through a photo
such lovely photos
such a lovely day
such a lovely boyfriend

today i start

this week has simply sucked
but tonight
hanging out with 5 of the best girls ever
oh em gee
i had the best time ever
im so excited haha
<3333333333
girl time is so much fun

i took a picture that would represent myself

( and this is what i got )

i found a new goal
i found something that will work
i found something that will change the whole meaning to myself
i think i've found happiness in this