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[im_only_kai]

i had this dream last night. i was at a bar/diner place and me maddy ron and someone else i can't remember were sitting in one of the booths that surrounded a bar.. kayla comes in and sits at the bar right next to our booth. i was complaining about needing a cigarette. kayla walks up to the table, counts out some money, goes up to one of the

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[for_worse]

i have writers block.
the worst kind.
the kind where there a million things you want to say, but none of them seem good enough.
why do i have to take sides?
why cant i love you both seperately?

i can't make words right now
this is mind blowing.
im in a towel from a shower where i sat and cried because i missed you
and i get a text on my phone saying "livejournal"
and i felt like i was suffocating.
how do we always know?
how come we always think of eachother at the same time?

i wana give this another try.
i wana be y and i again.
i want to, so much.
i want to be the inseperable best friends that are thousands of miles form eachother.

i just wana pick up where we left off.
as inseperable.
as sisters.

i miss you.
i miss y and i.
i miss lala.
i miss it all.
i just never had the balls to say it.

i dno.
tell me what you think.

oh, and congrats. ♥

[im_only_kai]

we cant be as close as we were if you take his side and think im lying.

[for_worse]

what do i think you're lying about?

[im_only_kai]

I would assume you think im lying about everything... considering you think i fucked him up.

[maddyness119]

oh. girls.
good dream. i was there. sounds like a party.
sounds like me and ron were pretty lit to go to a diner too.
i probably ordered pancakes with blueberries or a reuben sandwich.
...and especially a diner that still has cigarette machines.
so north carolina... what the shit.

[im_only_kai]

you can smoke in nc diners and shit.. and it was a bar/diner combo.. somethign i made up in my mind.. i dunno what you had but i had grilled cheese cuz i remember wondering how they toasted the bread so lightly but made the cheese so melted at the same time.. but it only happens in diners.... i dunno... i woke up in a wierd mood thnking of grilled cheese...

north carolina is shit. not the shit. just shit.

hummm.

[_sweet_charade]

have i mentioned lately that the entirety of our friend group is on the crack cocaine. and kai sometimes i read your journal and im just like she need to move back to the state so i can smack her upside the head give her a hug. and steal your cigarettes. i say we have a girls only baby shopping day old school style.... me you maddy and mush and such. maddy can drive quick shyt if she wants otherwise well just take my beast. next time you're up lets make it a deal. yea? yea. alright kids. see you at our playdate. ♥

hmmm part duex.

[_sweet_charade]

oh i forgot kay. kay too.

Re: hmmm part duex.

[im_only_kai]

no it's ok that you forgot kay.. i dont think thats gonna happen.. and i hope but mush you don't meany smushy cuz he's obviously no longer in the picture haha... uhm.... yea no need to steal my cigarettes i stopped a week ago :-)