Bitterer Schluck: i don't know why i feel the need to compensate for something that's not there.
seconds of doubt: Sort of like how I clutched a pillow last night, trying to feign my brain into thinking it was a human body.
Bitterer Schluck: exactly like that.

he's so bloody beautiful ( Read more... )

right now.
i really. really. need this to come.

and i know it will.
but there's always this sinking feeling
in my stomache.
beforehand.

and i'm tired.
of waiting.

i thought that sleeping with him would be a distraction.

i never meant to actually fall for him.