self medicating - it's my design
although i know you don't approve

if you just walked away
what could i really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?

i am the mess you chose
the closet you cannot close,
the devil in you i suppose
cause the wounds never healbut everything changes ( Read more... )

so now as i'm leavin'

i'm weary as hell

the confusion i'm feelin'

ain't no tongue can tell

the words fill my head

and fall to the floor

if god's on our side

he'll stop the next war.

i feel so... empty. and not the hungry sort of empty... just nothing's there. hollow or whatever. i hate this feeling. make it go away. =/

there'll come a day when all of that shit won't matter

i've been wasting my time. again.

what's new?

sometimes shooting myself in the face just seems like such an appealing option.

[don't even take that seriously. you know i love myself way too much to ever deprive the world of me. ;p]

i don't know how the conversation led into this, but ( Read more... )

Long ago and oh so far away ( Read more... )

Now you say you're lonely ( Read more... )

My ex is... an ex for a good reason. They all are.

Maybe I should... actually get my shit together like I keep saying I'm going to do

I love... I'm not even sure anymore.

I don't understand... why I continue to let people fuck me over repeatedly, especially when I already know it's coming.

I lost my... faith in the good of some people. And I ( Read more... )

My horror-scope for Thursday, May 11:

If something just isn't working for you, don't give the situation or this person 'just one more' chance. It's time to show 'em the door. No matter what, don't back down. You know what's best for you.

Saturday I had what I am hoping is my last cigarette ( Read more... )