LJ Idol Season 8, Week 29, Disappear

[imafarmgirl]

I was crumbling. I felt as though the world was closing in around me, like a cardboard box collapsing with me inside. The box wasn’t made of cardboard though, it was heavy stone I was trying to combat. I didn’t want to be alive more moments than I was willing to keep on fighting. My therapist was talking to me on a daily basis and I was taking

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[adoptedwriter]

Beautifully written! I'm glad your here! Hugs. AW

[imafarmgirl]

Thanks very much. I'm glad too.

[alycewilson]

My heart goes out to you. Hang in there; you are loved.

[imafarmgirl]

Thanks I appreciate that very much. My last round of depression lasted six months, but I am doing better now.

[myrna_bird]

Wonderfully written. So honest and real ringing true for all the effects of depression from that black hole and the low self esteem to all the various helps and therapies that are available. The one thing you always have now is knowing you can ask for help and it will be there. That is hope.
I am happy to hear you have your notes from the hospital to keep you working on your issues. Very good positive steps. Hugs and love!

[imafarmgirl]

Thank you. I'm lucky we have a good psych ward here so when you do need help it's there.

[myrna_bird]

I'm glad you know you have a place to go for help when you need it. You may never need them again but it is reassuring to know that the help is there if you do! Hugs.

[imafarmgirl]

I wish I could say that I thought I'd never need them again, but I just don't feel that confident. I've already been there twice even though I thought I'd never have to be in such a place. This second time I started feeling better as soon as I got in the locked unit, safe from my meds.

[medleymisty]

Honest and beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us. And you will always have that bit of strength.

[imafarmgirl]

You're welcome. Thanks for reading it.

[ellakite]

I have two friends who have had to be "committed for their own welfare."

I have always supported their decision... and I am so very glad they're still among the living.

And I'm glad you're still here, too... and had the strength to write about this.

[imafarmgirl]

Sometimes it is the only thing you can do to stay safe.