It seems like I have some switch on my body that says be vulnerable, don't be vulnerable. For some reason, when I'm around people and I actually am sad I won't cry, but the minute I walk away I'll burst into tears. such happened tonight. And ugh, I really haven't cried that much in a while. I hate it when people leave.
I don't really like that I don't actually mean anything to you. When did that happen? Cause I recall you saying I meant a lot to you. Well, whatever. You can be a dick, and yeah, I'll care. But what can I do?
It sucks soso much that the one person that really means the world to me has to leave. I hateeee it. I couldn't tell him how much they mean to me, though. that wouldn't be good.