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[imaradbiatch]

I hate this feeling. I have no control over this situation and it kills me. I know he has his reasons and they make perfect sense to me. I love being with him whether we're "together" or not, but it just hurts so badly. I wish he could make up his mind. But I know it's not a matter of him "making up his mind". He needs to do alot of praying. I know

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[nuuish]

aww beth, next time i see you i'm going to hug you!

well...

[wookieflanders]

from the perspective of a male who has ended a loving relationship pretty spontaniously. I can tell that i am terribly afraid of being with someone who i could fall in love with. Thats really sad, i know. But Commitment means i would have to grow up. . .

Re: well...

[imaradbiatch]

Thanks for the insight. It's so complicated it's crazy. But we (Kirk and I) are best friends. It's great. I know that if what I feel so strongly is right then we will be together. It's not like I'm sad because we'll never be together. Because in my heart I know we will. I just want to skip the whole "maturing" stage. Boys are silly...But it's understandable. I think there's something inside of everyone that is terrified of growing up. Some people just let that part take over more than others.
Man, James, we need to catch up.

I love you Dana!!! (and hugs as well!)