I'm going out with Akan tonight. I'm afraid of ruining it, cause I've been irritable all day. ... Hope it goes well...

Most of yesterday was boring... Me on my phone on the internet. Then AJ came over with a present for me. It was a pretty red teddy bear and candy. I love that bear! It's a dark red that I want my renewing vows gown to be. (Want it to be a gothic wedding everyone in black except me and a little color on Alan.) and it had a sweet card too. Then, he ( Read more... )

Alan had to work on this fridged holiday. Being that he does heating, he should make lots of money. AJ has the day off today, so he should be over... though I'm worried about the two of them driving in this nasty freezing rain. We don't really have any plans for today. Saturday, Alan and I want to in to the comedy show... my fingers are crossed. ( Read more... )

Alot's been going on. All in all, things are ok. The girls are good. My relationship with AJ is good. I'm on meds, so my anxiety isn't as bad. Only "issue" is over. Alan and I had a BIG fight Saturday-Sunday. I thought we where done. But we talked it out and are still together. I think ond of the main things is we need to spend more one-on-one time

My Puppy, Pandora, died on Friday. My friend found her mostly under my bed. I miss her so much, she was my best friend and my baby. She had just had her 10th birthday last November, and this month marks us having her for 10 years. I miss her so much.

I love you baby, where ever you are...

I guess I'm feeling a little bit better... but it's still being hard. I'm really having to work to make it all appear ok...

Another day of crash and burn, consern left in my ( Read more... )

Im not sure whats been going on with me lately. Ok ( Read more... )

So, I'm home now... Today was tough. I had to buy car insurance, (I have social anxiety, especialy on the phone ahone a

We're (me and the girls) at AJ's. He's looking online for work. ...