He is dying, I wish I could end his pain. He looks more and more like a person as all of this goes on...:(

i watched eraserhead today. What a fucked up movie. I drove to counseling. i made it home alive. I have fucking welts all over me. I want to see you tomorrow or today whatever while im not like this. That movie with jay mohr is excellent. John standish is the man. So is this matty2006 kid whoever he is.

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i guess ill do one too

• survive
• hammers
• fishing
• play graduation parties
• see bands

fuck man. FUCK FUCK FUKC. I have to get up tomorrow at 8. Who cares. I dont. I dontk now what to do. I dont know what the fuck i want. Im sad. I dont even feel like im here right now. Last night i almost fucking cried. Right now I want to cry. If im so wonderful amanda why cant i have what i want. Fuck that i dont want it anymore. I dont ( Read more... )

i <3 my awful luck with relationships ( Read more... )

So they cancelled the relay for life. I put a fscking tent up. That is like my biggest accomplishment next to graduating high school. I've been listening to sleep terror alot. I really like them. www.myspace.com/sleepterror . meep. Its 4:43 am i should get to bed the birds will come out soon.

My eyes feel like there is someone inside of them trying to get out. Maybe it has something to do with getting toothpaste in them and on my contacts. School ended on friday. Sort of sad. I picked up zaxch schoonover and his sister so I would look innocent. It failed. It was really hot. Amanda came over after school and it was wonderful. She ( Read more... )

So im gonna join this boat of recapping my weekend. Which hands down was incredible ( Read more... )

so...wow tonight was amazing. Today was amazing all in all. Maybe this week even. Got my license, the return of justin and then mad people watched us play, Amanda came to geneva tonight. So :). Since when do the yeah yeah yeahs play grindcore. Im eating cold mashed potatoes.