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so i suppose i'll sacrifice some sleep and post about some things that've been on my mind/are on on my mind at the moment.
for one, not having any more classes here is kind of exciting but also kind of depressing, though i'm not really feeling it. its more of an 'i know i should feel this way because i usually do in these situations' thing. maybe i should break from my norm/not be afraid to do so? never mind i do that all the time. anyway, i have my first of two exams in about 6 hours but it'll be a breeze, an essay about poetry. tomorrow night should be good, or at least it better be because it'll be my last real party of the year here. possibly ever, who knows if i'll really come up like once a month or so to see everyone again. i know i'd like to but reality doesn't always comply with fantasy. mmm i like that line.
thursday, after a night of heavy heavy drinking, ill be leaving for good, and then later that night it's the faint concert with natalie and james at least, hopefully sam joins in as well, gotta ask her still.
but onto actual thoughts. so i met my friends sister earlier this week for the first time after months of talk about how much we have in common and how much she wants to meet me because of what her sister has said to her about me. after all was said and done i pretty much realized that she possessed pretty much everything that i look for in a woman; great humor, intelligence, good taste in music, and easy on the eyes. of course theres more to her, and more to my preferences, but thats the very basics. pretty much shes been on my mind the past few days and while its decreased in frequency, i cant help but want to find someone like her seeing as i know she wouldn't go for me. in all, at least she's restored my faith that there are actually girls like that out there.
also, while i wasn't going to talk about it in here, the party i'm throwing is constantly on my mind. i keep thinking about how i'm going to make the place presentable, how to make things run smoothly, what to buy, how much it'll cost, who to invite and all of the other specifics. yeah i know, every other party i've been to is more laid back and i'm sure the hosts, j for example, don't worry nearly this much and just provide some things and let everyone do their thing. but seeing as there's going to be a decent amount of people and they need places to sleep and i've never really had more than like 4 people over my house at once, i'm somewhat paranoid. honestly, ask someone and they'll tell you that they've been inside my house less than 5 times ever. ask any one of friends. can't really explain why i don't have people over, it's just that i feel embarrassed if things are messy or somethings just not near-perfectly presentable.
i need to chill the fuck out.
in talking more with some people, this nature thing should go fairly well. there'll be a bunch of us getting together that 'normally' wouldn't hang out usually but i'm excited to see us all get together and become one with nature, at the risk of sounding tacky, and just have a pleasant time.
as well, i want this job to be as perfect as i'm thinking that it will be. i want to work hard and be sore, get in better shape, and make a lot of money. i want/hope i have the energy to keep awake and still do things with my friends at night. overall this should be a great thing because it'll cut back on my drinking and cleanse my body and get me in a better mood. exercise always seems to do that. and as for drinking, while i honestly cannot remember, i'm rather sure that this is the first friday that i've spent at RIT that i haven't had a drink. in retrospect that seems absurd and there's probably a few but not many. kind of ridiculous.
alright it's time to hit the hay (HAY!) and get ready for my BS exam with some sleep.
adieu.
for one, not having any more classes here is kind of exciting but also kind of depressing, though i'm not really feeling it. its more of an 'i know i should feel this way because i usually do in these situations' thing. maybe i should break from my norm/not be afraid to do so? never mind i do that all the time. anyway, i have my first of two exams in about 6 hours but it'll be a breeze, an essay about poetry. tomorrow night should be good, or at least it better be because it'll be my last real party of the year here. possibly ever, who knows if i'll really come up like once a month or so to see everyone again. i know i'd like to but reality doesn't always comply with fantasy. mmm i like that line.
thursday, after a night of heavy heavy drinking, ill be leaving for good, and then later that night it's the faint concert with natalie and james at least, hopefully sam joins in as well, gotta ask her still.
but onto actual thoughts. so i met my friends sister earlier this week for the first time after months of talk about how much we have in common and how much she wants to meet me because of what her sister has said to her about me. after all was said and done i pretty much realized that she possessed pretty much everything that i look for in a woman; great humor, intelligence, good taste in music, and easy on the eyes. of course theres more to her, and more to my preferences, but thats the very basics. pretty much shes been on my mind the past few days and while its decreased in frequency, i cant help but want to find someone like her seeing as i know she wouldn't go for me. in all, at least she's restored my faith that there are actually girls like that out there.
also, while i wasn't going to talk about it in here, the party i'm throwing is constantly on my mind. i keep thinking about how i'm going to make the place presentable, how to make things run smoothly, what to buy, how much it'll cost, who to invite and all of the other specifics. yeah i know, every other party i've been to is more laid back and i'm sure the hosts, j for example, don't worry nearly this much and just provide some things and let everyone do their thing. but seeing as there's going to be a decent amount of people and they need places to sleep and i've never really had more than like 4 people over my house at once, i'm somewhat paranoid. honestly, ask someone and they'll tell you that they've been inside my house less than 5 times ever. ask any one of friends. can't really explain why i don't have people over, it's just that i feel embarrassed if things are messy or somethings just not near-perfectly presentable.
i need to chill the fuck out.
in talking more with some people, this nature thing should go fairly well. there'll be a bunch of us getting together that 'normally' wouldn't hang out usually but i'm excited to see us all get together and become one with nature, at the risk of sounding tacky, and just have a pleasant time.
as well, i want this job to be as perfect as i'm thinking that it will be. i want to work hard and be sore, get in better shape, and make a lot of money. i want/hope i have the energy to keep awake and still do things with my friends at night. overall this should be a great thing because it'll cut back on my drinking and cleanse my body and get me in a better mood. exercise always seems to do that. and as for drinking, while i honestly cannot remember, i'm rather sure that this is the first friday that i've spent at RIT that i haven't had a drink. in retrospect that seems absurd and there's probably a few but not many. kind of ridiculous.
alright it's time to hit the hay (HAY!) and get ready for my BS exam with some sleep.
adieu.