Sometimes I cut myself to see how much i bleed...
its like the pain...
its such a sudden rush for me...

So the more and more I think about whats been going on, the more it makes sence to me. If Amanda needs to see other guys, then thats up to her. At least she didnt cheat on me with him, that would have hurt a lot. She tells me that she will be back, and i hope to god she will. But im glad she can this this stuff out of her system now. And i ( Read more... )

Life has been pissing me off a lot lately... First Amanda isnt with me right now, then last night i get into an accident that fucks up the passenger side of my car... At least noone else was in the car to get hurt. Why is all this shit happening to me at one time. I dont know how much more i can take. i fucking hate what i cant control.

Fuck

So heres what i do on a daily basis. Wake up around 530 am to stare at my cell phone for as much as 15 minutes, thinking amanda will call it, fall back asleep and wake up around 830 thinking i missed her call*checks cell phone again*.... No Calls... I then get up for work (if i have it that day) and sell computers to people i sometimes cant even ( Read more... )

As we all know, ive been really weird lately because i lost someone i love. Now this is also given me a chance to learn a few things at the same time ( Read more... )

So yeah, last Sunday I went to the Phillies Game with my boss and some guys from work. Its was fun, and the seats were awesome. This was my first time in Citizens Bank Park, its really nice and stuff. I had box seats right behind home plate. it was awesome, and the hall of fame club was great.

well i think ive been away from amanda to long now... im starting to dream of her... god im such a freakin weirdo or something. her not being with me is really affecting me, hopefully she will get back with me soon or something... thats all for now...

shes my life, without her, i dont have one.

well im sitten here at the media inn with my dad... everyones sleeping except me. im hoping amanda and everyone else had fun at the prom tonight. well i found out that amanda is dating or hooking up with a guy i work withs brother, which is good i guess. i hope i get to go out with amanda so i can show her how much i want to make everything work ( Read more... )

1.Are you in love?- Without a doubt I am ( Read more... )

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away