Ungh.
This is just me being all messed up because of the lack of sleeping. If you don't want to read about me ranting about it. Feel free to close down this tab. Or something. XD
Okay so. I've noticed that I can't sleep.
I have slept like... 4-6 hours a night. If I'm lucky.
But it's starting to get to me.
So. I had to move out from my room. And yeah. That makes it harder.
Because I'm stupid in the way that if I change bed or change pillow or the place I'm sleeping, I find it hard to sleep for a week or so.
And it was tough, changing room. I don't think I've cried over something like this for ages.
But it really got to me. And now. I can't sleep.
But that's not the real point either. Changing room. I just. Can't sleep.
I read, I stare at the roof, trying to count stuff like 8x4 12x6 and so on. I fail at math big time so it use to make my head tired.
It ends up with me being even more tired, but still not able to sleep.
I listen to FT Island's more.. sad and depressing songs which makes me cry and feel all depressed. BUT STILL CAN'T SLEEP.
Idk what to do anymore. I'm so tired so seeing Joffs write something simple like "i need to sleep now since i'm going to wake up in a couple of hours" makes me sad. Not that she's leaving me alone because believe me I'm happy that she's going to bed. She needs all sleep she can get.
But it leaves me feeling like I'm the only one not being able to sleep. It's stupid I know. But that's just the way it is.
I'm looking at Hyungshik singing some song. Maybe I should try to learn ZE:A members. Maybe that makes me able to sleep...
...who am I kidding.
My lower back hurts, my ribs hurt. Although I'm not sure that it's really the RIBS but it feels like so. And my neck. Yes my neck hurts.
Being like this also made me think. Or well I looked at my Shine a light poster. But it made me think. How does our beloved artists really feel? Does G-Dragon have neck pain? Does Hongki's lower back hurt? What does Hyunseung do when he can't sleep.
NGL though. I really look forward to Big Bang and FTI's comeback. Like crazy. Maybe then we'll get something less... monotune. Yes. Their comeback will be awesome. I can just feel it.
Now I'm off to sleep. Or well. I hope so.
I'll just... Leave this.
