Today I went to a huge community yard sale a few towns over. I made out like a bandit! I got a scary Jesus tapestry...I had to people! And I found my fav movie of all time from when I was a kid. Warriors of Virtue. I'm still a big kid. I got a harry potter statue and Quiji board, an insense burner, a kind of creepy painting that was beautiful ( Read more... )

I was watching First Knight with Carol last night when something occured to us. We want Richard Gere game. Like seriously, he was macking on this chick and he was damn good. I want to be able to be a smartass and make women melt at my abnoxiousness. I think what gives it to him is the eyes. They're all dark and he looks at her all intently ( Read more... )

Insomnia when you think about it is a funny thing. I'm really wired for sound this morning. I'm sitting here drinking lots of Coke and smoking lots of cigarettes, that will ultimately only kill me faster, and watching Carol play Final Fantasy 9. And I'm thinking to myself why would I want to miss moments like this? I know deep down my friends ( Read more... )

Well, I went to therapy today and it went fairly well. However, do you know what my shrink thinks I have along side my manic-depression??? PTSD, or for the less initially inclined Post Truamatic Stress Disorder. wtf??? When I was 16 I freaked out and honest to God thought someone was going to murder me any second. So I took refuge in my closet ( Read more... )

Well, I was going to attempt to write something inspiring and meaningful in this thing for once. But, I think I'll just continue with my incesant ramblings about nothing. I got put on medicine. 100 mgs of Seroquel and 20 mgs of Fluoxotine. I'm feeling better. I've actually been in a good mood that's lasted more than a few hours. It makes me ( Read more... )

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Change is something that happens over time. It takes a lot of high and low points and a lot of factors to happen. But, in the end it finally starts to take shape. It's not easy, no one ever said it was. When it finally starts it developes into either something much better or much worse. I'm hoping for something better ( Read more... )

I'm informing everyone that I am in contact with that I am going to disappear for a while. I can't present myself to anyone until I change. I'm breaking down, I can feel it a little more each day. So, it's not fair to anyone to expect them to deal with it when I can't do it myself. I need to fix myself. I need to emerge healthy, strong, and ( Read more... )

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ok..I'm going to start off the day with randomness, as per usual. I went to 7-11 this morning for some cigs. So I pull up, go in, and the girl just looks at me and walks away from the counter. I'm thinking, "oh ok, she must have had something important to do." But no, she went over to the coffee makers and just start wiping some stuff off ( Read more... )