Yesterday I got a job that will allow me to work only three days a week and will pay me enough to live ( Read more... )

I did promise to start writing again and I really would like to. I think I need to. It feels awfully odd though seeing as how I havent written in this journal on any kind of a regular basis since at least two years ago. Im confused about whether I should be reopening this journal or starting fresh. I feel a bit sick about it, like opening a box of ( Read more... )

ok new commitment to start writing again. for real this time. i need it and im finally out of school so I might actually have time to do it. Someone kick me in the face please if I dont follow through. Just dont break any teeth.

the last month has been a tidal wave breaking against my body, shattering a stillness that always seemed suspicious ( Read more... )

Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)


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ive spent so long thinking i knew where i was going. i was on top of my game. ive had a perception that if i just keep going i will eventually emerge at the end of the long tunnel. I will be proven right and all the uncertainty will be justified. but i realized today and over the process of the last few weeks that i have no fucking idea what im ( Read more... )

im back at bennington and i have to say i think this is the first time ive ever been happy here. something happened this summer. something very good. i think i grew up a little or something about me just clicked into place. i feel better about everything in my life and im probably in the best place emotionally, etc that ive ever been in. im sitting ( Read more... )

i have done more complaining in the past term than i thought was possible and now that its finally over im a bit unsure what to do now. if i had my choice to do anything i would like to have a long stretch of aimless days for wandering outside in the sun by myself, quiet nights for reading or having people over. id like to do some drugs and some ( Read more... )

i have been going through some very old poetry recently. things i wrote when i was 16 and 17. I had a book of poetry printed when I was a senior in highschool and up until now i have generally kept it hidden for some combination of reasons between embarrasment about the things i was feeling and thinking that the writing was mostly shit. however, ( Read more... )

Im restless. Incredibly so. I cant seem to finish a chapter in a book or a single homework assignment without having to get up and wander around having no idea what im looking for. And thats the problem really. I have an appetite for something I cant conceptualize. Not only can I not find it but I dont even know how to start looking. I could ( Read more... )