today was just not a good day.
that's all i have to say.

i'm so much better than him.
and i don't know why i have to keep reminding myself that.

it's fascinating to watch how people change.
and it sucks when you end up on the bad part of it.

i'm starting to realize that i tricked myself into believing some people were actually my friends.
for long periods of time.
and it sucks to get smacked in the face knowing that it's not true.

so i went to israel.
and it was amazing. and beautiful. and more than i ever thought it could be.
and then i did when everyone told me not to.
i fell for a soldier. and he fell for me. ahh!
i can't wait to go back.

my heart is hurting.
my roommate is moving out tomorrow to go to utah next semeseter.
i'm really excited for her, because i can tell she wants it so bad.
she'll be back, but still.
she's my best friend. and i love her to death.
and she's not going to even be in the same time zone.

i hate it when my roommate is drunk.
this is how i end up staying up until 430am the night before i need to write four papers and go to work.
she ruins good nights.

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i hate boys.
and that sounds dumb and girly and childish, but i really do.
especially this one.

for those of you that live at/near guiliderland!!!
i'm coming home this weekend! we should do something saturday night, get at me! =)

on another note, i learned to crochet today. i'm addicted to it.
well i have to go, my roommate and i are going to sleep early.
night darlings!

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