Be Like You
Title: Be Like You
Series: Bleach
Pairing/Characters: Hisagi Shuuhei (Muguruma/Hisagi) (Characters by Kubo Tite)
Warnings: None
Notes: Inspired by 'Love Remains the Same' by Gavin Rossdale.
Summary/Excerpt: In others’ eyes, you were changed. Different. Someone to be held an arm’s length away. That was what made me decide to pull you close.
A thousand times I've seen you standing - Gavin Rossdale
How many times have I remembered you towering over me? Every time I felt as though I couldn’t, every time I was tired, every time I questioned why. So, how many times? Hundreds. Thousands. Countless. And each time, I wondered where you were, how someone like you could just disappear. Wondered if I was the only one still searching for you.
All this time…I’ve admired you. I looked up to you literally as a child, look up to you figuratively now. And that, I thought, was that. I longed to stand tall, to be confident in myself and my ability, to be like you. To have the power to haul a small boy to his feet and keep him going for a lifetime. To leave a mark on someone’s life as indelible as a tattoo. To be worthy of such admiration.
And then you were there - and I admired you still. I watched you and wanted you to see me, to see how everything I am I owe to you. You did see me - but not as the little boy I used to be. You saw a man, and I realized I had more than admiration to give you.
Intruding on that was the buzz of talk, of meetings, of judgments. Only I remembered you the way you were. In others’ eyes, you were changed. Different. Someone to be held an arm’s length away. That was what made me decide to pull you close.
I still have admiration to give, but I also give you my support. I stand beside you when they study you, when they discuss the danger they see in you. I make sure everyone sees me at your side, here, in my world, and in yours. I am not letting you disappear again, I am not willing to lose you.
I am not willing to let anyone make you into less than you are.
It should never have had to be this way, with you losing all those years, with all of us losing our ideals and our friends. There should never have been a question of whether or not you belong, a question of who we could trust.
But as you’ve said, we’re alive. We’re here.
I've always wanted to be like you.
And finally…I have you.
Series: Bleach
Pairing/Characters: Hisagi Shuuhei (Muguruma/Hisagi) (Characters by Kubo Tite)
Warnings: None
Notes: Inspired by 'Love Remains the Same' by Gavin Rossdale.
Summary/Excerpt: In others’ eyes, you were changed. Different. Someone to be held an arm’s length away. That was what made me decide to pull you close.
A thousand times I've seen you standing - Gavin Rossdale
How many times have I remembered you towering over me? Every time I felt as though I couldn’t, every time I was tired, every time I questioned why. So, how many times? Hundreds. Thousands. Countless. And each time, I wondered where you were, how someone like you could just disappear. Wondered if I was the only one still searching for you.
All this time…I’ve admired you. I looked up to you literally as a child, look up to you figuratively now. And that, I thought, was that. I longed to stand tall, to be confident in myself and my ability, to be like you. To have the power to haul a small boy to his feet and keep him going for a lifetime. To leave a mark on someone’s life as indelible as a tattoo. To be worthy of such admiration.
And then you were there - and I admired you still. I watched you and wanted you to see me, to see how everything I am I owe to you. You did see me - but not as the little boy I used to be. You saw a man, and I realized I had more than admiration to give you.
Intruding on that was the buzz of talk, of meetings, of judgments. Only I remembered you the way you were. In others’ eyes, you were changed. Different. Someone to be held an arm’s length away. That was what made me decide to pull you close.
I still have admiration to give, but I also give you my support. I stand beside you when they study you, when they discuss the danger they see in you. I make sure everyone sees me at your side, here, in my world, and in yours. I am not letting you disappear again, I am not willing to lose you.
I am not willing to let anyone make you into less than you are.
It should never have had to be this way, with you losing all those years, with all of us losing our ideals and our friends. There should never have been a question of whether or not you belong, a question of who we could trust.
But as you’ve said, we’re alive. We’re here.
I've always wanted to be like you.
And finally…I have you.