everything feels wrong. and rather than feel out a list, i'm wisked away in my beautiful memories to places and people who made me feel nothing but beauty around and completeness and happyness and joy. and these places and people and fall leaves under wet rainy skys and warm smiles and perfect kisses and snuggles in security blankets make me ( Read more... )

i am sleepy. it's early.

i still can't fall asleep without one hand over my heart. last night, in my sleepy thinking, i wondered if thats why i feel so disconnected and like i'm hiding these days -- that i might have, so gradually, become unopen that i wonder why it is i can't seem to feel the world around me.

open up. be free.

i've been feeling more like myself these days. it feels like so often these days, i've used my time to do so much, except be me. like i'm not really there, like i'm not really feeling or /being/. does that make any sense ( Read more... )

the only way to win is not to fight at all

i haven't put words to these pages (or any pages) in so long. but sometimes it doesn't feel like so long, because it feels like so little has changed ( Read more... )

i'm not sure how to say it, only how to feel it,
i miss him so very much,
he is my best friend

when i open the door i still expect to see you and the other little ones come to sniff the air or peek outside, or come snuggle on the couch
even though so much
time has passed
to those who feel that sort of thing :'(

today is a sad, crying day ( Read more... )

everything we know is wrong

it /feels/ like so much isn't happy... isn't right, isn't peaceful... isn't how its supposed to be
i've had this same feeling for nearly three years now :(

i have to run :(

so far, i'm feeling free

i had a very humbling experience ( Read more... )