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i've had a bad day already soo. far. i just wish that she would just shut up and love me.
i am 18 years old. and i still act like a child. well that's going to change. i need to realize that i am no longer a child. self mutilation,bulimia and starvation are childish things. i am not a child so i must give up my childish ways. so i will. i'm done with everyone. i no longer wish to fight and argue. i no longer wish to cry. and i no longer wish to die. i need to change my ways. and i will. i will be graduating in a few months. and am leaving as well. so in the next few months that i am still here i am going to change. i am done with everything. it's gonna be hard but i know i can do it. and no i do not need help from anyone. and mary is gonna pay for opening her mouth to ms.g. i do not need anything. i'm doing fine by myself. my mother isn't really bothering me anymore. she just don't care she knows she can't do anything to me anymore and she knows i'm leaving. i haven't cut since the whole incident with jess and cheating. so i am doing pretty good. cept for the fact that i'm depressed and am lazy. but that doesn't matter. i am gonna change. no more crying over spilt milk. i am done with everyone. so i think it be best to leave me alone if you don't know me. i do not trust people or me and i never will. i only have a few people i trust. sade,christina and juanita. and that's it. no one else. and i don't really love anyone either. i only will die for the following. juanita,izabela,rosa,sade&christina that is all. i will do anything for them. fight for them if i have to. they are the only fucking people who actually understand everything that goes on in this stupid head of mine. only ones. everyone else does not. but i don't care. like i said i'm done. it's time for me to grow up. and forget the past. and fuck people. cuz they're all morons anyways. and i don't need them. i need noone. at all. i have who i have and i keep them close to my heart. so don't just come up to me and think u know me. you are shit and will always be that way. i am and always will be better than you. i love my closest friends and they know it. i am done with it all. it's time to grow up. so say goodbye to the old kristin and welcome to the new because i am done with all this shit. i need to change and i will. and one of my many changes is i am gonna start to go to church.i've lost God and i need to find him cuz i feel lost w/o him. judge me if u like i just don't give a damn. but i still will go on with my beliefs. no matter what nothing will change that.ever. i will still be as weird as strange as ever but way more mature. so i'm gonna end this by telling you who exactly i am.
I AM KRISTIN ANNA JACOBO. I AM 18. I'M A SURVIVOR OF SELF MUTILATION,EATING DISORDERS, ABUSE, AND DEPRESSION. WHEN IN THE SUNLIGHT MY EYES SPARKLE A PRETTY BROWN. BUT WHAT IS BEHIND THEM ARE A BUNCH OF LIES. MY HAIR IS IT'S NATURAL COLOR. BUT IN THE SUN U CAN SEE THE VARIOUS SHADES OF RED AND GOLD. I DON'T THINK I'M VERY PRETTY, BUT I'M SURE AS HELL NOT FUCKING UGLY. AND YEAH I AM A CHIONA. I LOVE TO CRY. IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER AND THAT IS WHY MY EYES ARE SOO SHINY. I HAVE NO FATHER HE DIED WHEN I WAS 2. AND FOR SOME REASON GOD LIKES TO PUNISH ME AND TAKE AWAY EVERYONE THAT I LOVE AND WHO LOVE ME. IT'S NOT FAIR, BUT HEY LIFE ISN'T. AND I AM A BRUJA. THAT IS MY NICKNAME AND I LOVE MAGIC. NO I'M NOT A DEVIL WORSHIPPER. I LOVE GOD. I'M A WHITE *GOOD* WITCH. I LOVE MUSIC. IT'S ALWAYS BEEN IN MY LIFE AND ALWAYS WILL BE. I DO NOT BELIEVE THE BIBLE. BUT I WANT TO READ IT. I'M NOT EXTREMELY RELIGIOUS. AND SOMETIMES I AM ASHAMED OF MY RELIGION. BEING CATHOLIC ISN'T WHAT IT USED TO BE. I AM TRILINGUAL. READING AND WRITING ARE MY STRENGTHS. MY WEAKNESSES ARE ... WELL U DON'T NEED TO KNOW THAT UNLESS U KNOW ME. I NEVER USED TO BE PROUD OF MY HERITAGE. BUT NOW I AM. I AM PROUD TO BE MEXICAN,CROATIAN,SWEEDISH,IRISH,SLOVAK,NATIVE AMERICAN, CENTRAL AMERICAN INDIAN AND ITAILIAN. IN OTHER WORDS I'M PROUD TO BE MEXICAN AND EUROPEAN. AND NO I'M NOT MEXICAN GARBAGE OR EURO TRASH. I AM A BIT LAZY, BUT I DO WHAT I NEED TOO. I LIKE TO WORK AS WELL AS SLEEP. I HATE WHEN MY HANDS GET DIRTY. I'M A BIT OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE. I STAND UP FOR WHAT I BELIEV IN. AND I DON'T GIVE A DAMN IF U THINK I'M WRONG. I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND WILL NEVER ABANDON THEM. I AM BI. AND YESH THERE IS SUCH A THING. AND NO I'M NOT FAKE. I ENJOY SEX WITH BOTH SEXES. I'VE BEEN THIS WAY SINCE I WAS A CHILD. I WAS JUST IN DENIAL. I AM NOT NOR WILL I EVER BE A POSER. DON'T LABLE ME OR ASK WHAT I AM CUZ U'LL GET A LONG UNWANTED ANSWER. LIKE ME FOR ME NOT MY CLOTHES OR TASTE IN MUSIC. AND DON'T JUDGE ME. I MAY NOT BE PERFECT BUT WHO IS. DON'T TALK ABOUT MY FAMILY OR FRIENDS CUZ I WILL FIGHT FOR THEM AND U WILL LOSE. I AM A BITCH AND ALWAYS WILL BE. I HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND AM PROUD OF IT. I AM KRISTIN ANNA JACOBO AND I WILL BE FOREVER. AND I NO LONGER GIVE A DAMN ABOUT U WORTHLESS PIECES OF SHIT. I ONLY CARE FOR THOSE I LOVE AND ALWAYS WILL. SO FUCK ALL U BASTARDS. G' DAY.
i am 18 years old. and i still act like a child. well that's going to change. i need to realize that i am no longer a child. self mutilation,bulimia and starvation are childish things. i am not a child so i must give up my childish ways. so i will. i'm done with everyone. i no longer wish to fight and argue. i no longer wish to cry. and i no longer wish to die. i need to change my ways. and i will. i will be graduating in a few months. and am leaving as well. so in the next few months that i am still here i am going to change. i am done with everything. it's gonna be hard but i know i can do it. and no i do not need help from anyone. and mary is gonna pay for opening her mouth to ms.g. i do not need anything. i'm doing fine by myself. my mother isn't really bothering me anymore. she just don't care she knows she can't do anything to me anymore and she knows i'm leaving. i haven't cut since the whole incident with jess and cheating. so i am doing pretty good. cept for the fact that i'm depressed and am lazy. but that doesn't matter. i am gonna change. no more crying over spilt milk. i am done with everyone. so i think it be best to leave me alone if you don't know me. i do not trust people or me and i never will. i only have a few people i trust. sade,christina and juanita. and that's it. no one else. and i don't really love anyone either. i only will die for the following. juanita,izabela,rosa,sade&christina that is all. i will do anything for them. fight for them if i have to. they are the only fucking people who actually understand everything that goes on in this stupid head of mine. only ones. everyone else does not. but i don't care. like i said i'm done. it's time for me to grow up. and forget the past. and fuck people. cuz they're all morons anyways. and i don't need them. i need noone. at all. i have who i have and i keep them close to my heart. so don't just come up to me and think u know me. you are shit and will always be that way. i am and always will be better than you. i love my closest friends and they know it. i am done with it all. it's time to grow up. so say goodbye to the old kristin and welcome to the new because i am done with all this shit. i need to change and i will. and one of my many changes is i am gonna start to go to church.i've lost God and i need to find him cuz i feel lost w/o him. judge me if u like i just don't give a damn. but i still will go on with my beliefs. no matter what nothing will change that.ever. i will still be as weird as strange as ever but way more mature. so i'm gonna end this by telling you who exactly i am.
I AM KRISTIN ANNA JACOBO. I AM 18. I'M A SURVIVOR OF SELF MUTILATION,EATING DISORDERS, ABUSE, AND DEPRESSION. WHEN IN THE SUNLIGHT MY EYES SPARKLE A PRETTY BROWN. BUT WHAT IS BEHIND THEM ARE A BUNCH OF LIES. MY HAIR IS IT'S NATURAL COLOR. BUT IN THE SUN U CAN SEE THE VARIOUS SHADES OF RED AND GOLD. I DON'T THINK I'M VERY PRETTY, BUT I'M SURE AS HELL NOT FUCKING UGLY. AND YEAH I AM A CHIONA. I LOVE TO CRY. IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER AND THAT IS WHY MY EYES ARE SOO SHINY. I HAVE NO FATHER HE DIED WHEN I WAS 2. AND FOR SOME REASON GOD LIKES TO PUNISH ME AND TAKE AWAY EVERYONE THAT I LOVE AND WHO LOVE ME. IT'S NOT FAIR, BUT HEY LIFE ISN'T. AND I AM A BRUJA. THAT IS MY NICKNAME AND I LOVE MAGIC. NO I'M NOT A DEVIL WORSHIPPER. I LOVE GOD. I'M A WHITE *GOOD* WITCH. I LOVE MUSIC. IT'S ALWAYS BEEN IN MY LIFE AND ALWAYS WILL BE. I DO NOT BELIEVE THE BIBLE. BUT I WANT TO READ IT. I'M NOT EXTREMELY RELIGIOUS. AND SOMETIMES I AM ASHAMED OF MY RELIGION. BEING CATHOLIC ISN'T WHAT IT USED TO BE. I AM TRILINGUAL. READING AND WRITING ARE MY STRENGTHS. MY WEAKNESSES ARE ... WELL U DON'T NEED TO KNOW THAT UNLESS U KNOW ME. I NEVER USED TO BE PROUD OF MY HERITAGE. BUT NOW I AM. I AM PROUD TO BE MEXICAN,CROATIAN,SWEEDISH,IRISH,SLOVAK,NATIVE AMERICAN, CENTRAL AMERICAN INDIAN AND ITAILIAN. IN OTHER WORDS I'M PROUD TO BE MEXICAN AND EUROPEAN. AND NO I'M NOT MEXICAN GARBAGE OR EURO TRASH. I AM A BIT LAZY, BUT I DO WHAT I NEED TOO. I LIKE TO WORK AS WELL AS SLEEP. I HATE WHEN MY HANDS GET DIRTY. I'M A BIT OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE. I STAND UP FOR WHAT I BELIEV IN. AND I DON'T GIVE A DAMN IF U THINK I'M WRONG. I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND WILL NEVER ABANDON THEM. I AM BI. AND YESH THERE IS SUCH A THING. AND NO I'M NOT FAKE. I ENJOY SEX WITH BOTH SEXES. I'VE BEEN THIS WAY SINCE I WAS A CHILD. I WAS JUST IN DENIAL. I AM NOT NOR WILL I EVER BE A POSER. DON'T LABLE ME OR ASK WHAT I AM CUZ U'LL GET A LONG UNWANTED ANSWER. LIKE ME FOR ME NOT MY CLOTHES OR TASTE IN MUSIC. AND DON'T JUDGE ME. I MAY NOT BE PERFECT BUT WHO IS. DON'T TALK ABOUT MY FAMILY OR FRIENDS CUZ I WILL FIGHT FOR THEM AND U WILL LOSE. I AM A BITCH AND ALWAYS WILL BE. I HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND AM PROUD OF IT. I AM KRISTIN ANNA JACOBO AND I WILL BE FOREVER. AND I NO LONGER GIVE A DAMN ABOUT U WORTHLESS PIECES OF SHIT. I ONLY CARE FOR THOSE I LOVE AND ALWAYS WILL. SO FUCK ALL U BASTARDS. G' DAY.