THERE'S ONLY BEEN YOU (31/35)
TITLE: ’’THERE’S ONLY BEEN YOU’’ (31/35)
Author: imnotskerrd
Pairing: Adam/Kris; Adam/OMC; Kris/Alexis
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. Completely fabricated.
Summary: Houseboy!Adam and Jerk!Kris
But what he would do, if he didn’t have that luck again? what he would do if he didn’t have another chance to straightened all his mistakes? Could he stand losing everything?
MASTERLIST
They all sat in a couch at the end corner of the club, but they had the perfect view of the dance floor.
Adam and Seth sat close together, while Kris sat in between Tommy and Brook. Sasha, Terrance, Isaac and Taylor were already on the dance floor doing their thing. Tommy, Monte, Brook, Adam and Seth were nursing their drinks on the couch and having a small conversation here and there. But Kris felt suffocated from the tension between them and he felt uncomfortable with Seth’s eyes on him.
Though Seth wasn’t really engaging with them in any way since that ’babe’ incident, and seemed to be thinking a lot since. He noticed that he had visited Adam a lot lately but seemed so occupied.
Suddenly, the air became so thick and Kris felt claustrophobic. He stood up to get a new bottle of beer, his second for the night. He needed it, he needed to be away from them too. He ordered his drink and sat on the stool, trying to fascinate himself with the condensation that had been running on his beer bottle. He glanced at Adam, who at that time, awkwardly whispering with Monte. Seth was staring at his vodka, seemed so out of place. He definitely knew now that he was his husband’s ex. What would he gonna do?
He slightly jumped when a hand tapped his shoulder. When he looked up, he saw a tall, handsome, blonde haired man smiling down at him. he has the perfect smile and a deep blue eyes that sparkles even at the dark. He was really gorgeous. And he looked like someone he knew. He kicked himself for thinking like that about his best friend. They were best friends and it would stay that way for god knows how long.
‘’hey, mind if I sit?’’ the gorgeous man said.
‘’y-yeah, sure.’’ He gulped another drink to hide his amazement. Why this man, as gorgeous as he was, wanted to sit with him? of all the flashier guys and twinks around?
‘’drinking alone?’’ he leaned in to speak on his ears, the music were too loud. That was one of the things giving Kris an headache.
‘’nah, I have my friends over there.’’ He pointed to the couch without looking.
‘’oh.’’ Then a few moments of awkward silence. ‘’you want another one? It’s on me.’’ Kris nodded and said his thanks. The man introduced himself as Andrew and they shook hands as Kris told him his name. Then the conversation started and before he realized, he really was enjoying the man’s company.
‘’Kris, why are you here?’’ it was Adam. He turned to look at him. but Adam wasn’t looking at him but to Andrew. He eyed him from head to feet, and backed up again before shooting a glare at Kris. his brows were knitted together in irritation.
‘’umm, I was just having another bottle, then I met- Adam this is Andrew.’’ Then he shifted to looked at Andrew, ‘’This is my friend, Adam.’’ Andrew looked at him confusedly. But extended his hand to shake Adam’s nevertheless. He took it after a moment of hesitation but staring at Kris with fire on his eyes.
‘’come to the couch again.’’ Now, that was a command.
‘’I’m having a good time here, Adam. ‘’ he sternly said, so irritated and annoyed.
‘’and you are not with us?’’ staring at Andrew again but this time with equal rage that he had been shooting Kris since he came up to them.
‘’Adam, please. I just want to have fun. Have fun, too, you know. That was the reason we all came here, wasn’t it?’’ he drank the rest of his beer and turned to the obviously confused Andrew.
‘’whatever’’ he said between clenching teeth. He stomped out and plopped on the couch again.
‘’you sure he is just a friend? Because he was acting like a jealous boyfriend. Kris, If you two are together and having some-I don’t want to complicate your situation.’’ He looked concerned, but Andrew didn’t make any move. He stayed on his seat, still staring at Kris.
‘’no worries, man. We are not together, trust me.’’
‘’are you sure? he’s still looking at me right this moment. Like he wanted to eat me whole.’’ He ran his finger on the rim of his glass, ‘’I don’t have the right to ask, but I’ll ask anyway. If you are not together now, does it mean you used to be?’’
‘’yup. For 6 fucking years.’’ Kris wasn’t really drunk, maybe a little tipsy, but he couldn’t stop himself from telling a man that he knew for less than 30 minutes about his past relationship with Adam. Maybe because he just needed to, he couldn’t confide on anyone on the tour. He felt he just needed a random person, who didn’t know who they were, who he can tell those things that he couldn’t with the people around him for almost 6 months. it was vindicating, like some weight had been lifted from his shoulder.
They talked for a good 30 minutes more until Kris was done talking and felt buzzed enough to dance. He grabbed Andrew’s hand and lead him to the dance floor. They sway together through the music and Kris really had fun. He was enjoying dancing with Andrew and somehow lost track of time, until a hand was tapping his shoulder. It was forceful to say the least. When he turned, he already knew who it was, but the emotion on Adam’s face caught him off guard.
‘’Kris, Let’s go.’’ He said, shouting through the loud noise.
‘’Adam, I want to stay for a while-‘’ he paused as he saw Seth walking up to them. ‘’Go, if you are tired. I’ll stay.’’ He nudge his chin to Seth’s direction, making Adam turned his head. When he looked back at him, his face was very angry.
‘’Didn’t you not hear me? I said Let’s go! I want you out of here, now!’’ he was yanking his hand forward causing him to stumbled onto Adam’s chest. Kris pulled his hand back with force, causing Adam to narrowed his eyes and clenched his jaw.
‘’no, I am staying. Go with your husband if you need.’’ He was about to turned to Andrew, when Adam held his wrist again. ‘’Get your hand off me, Adam.’’ he jerked his hand away, but Adam’s hold was too tight.
‘’Adam, I’ll take you to the hotel. Let Kris stay if he wants to.’’ Seth said with a stern face. Though Kris couldn’t hardly say if he was angry or not.
‘’Seth, you don’t understand. He is drunk, he might be in trouble if we leave him here.’’ He whines, sounding like the old Adam that Kris always knew.
‘’I’m not drunk. And I’m not that stupid to put myself in trouble.’’ Kris said, trying to yanked his hand but Adam’s gripped was too tight. He was sure that it would left a bruise the next day.
‘’Adam, I think Kris is right. He is not drunk and he is a responsible grown up man. I think you are the one who had so much to drink. C’mon.’’ He held onto Adam’s arm, looking down to Adam’s hand that clutched to Kris’ wrist.
‘’but I saw him drink 4 bottles of beer and he never drink more than 1 the whole tour. And... I’m not drunk, who says I’m drunk?’’ Adam stood in the middle of Kris and Seth. His hand still holding Kris’, Seth was holding his. ‘’Babe, please. Come with me.’’ he moved closer to Kris, eyes were glistening with tears threatening to roll. Kris’ heart sank with the looked on Adam’s face, pleading at him.
He looked at Seth, who was still standing there witnessing everything. He saw a flash of sadness and pain crossed his eyes. The resigned look he had on his face as he dropped Adam’s wrist, but not before glancing up at his husband with that devastated look in his eyes.
‘’Babe...’’ he pleaded again. Kris just nodded and turned his hand to twined it with Adam’s. What would happen next was beyond his control. He just went with his instinct at that moment, and that instinct was telling him to go with Adam.
After saying his quick goodbye to Andrew, he pulled on Adam’s hand and lead him to the door of the club. Seth was nowhere to be found and Kris didn’t know if that should make him feel relieved or worried. But he chose to wiped any traces of confusion off his mind, he will deal with that later.
Kris lead Adam to the awaiting car that had been parked in front of the club. Adam wrapped his arm on his shoulder as he rested his hand on Adam’s waist. Adam was a bit tipsy, but sober enough to know the consequences to their actions.
Kris opened the car door for Adam to get in, and surprised to find Seth sitting on the other end of the back seat. Adam greeted his husband with a cold ‘’hey’’, scooted over to give Kris enough space to seat. The ride was in deafening silence which made Kris and Seth’s sighs became more audible than it should have.
‘’Hun, are you alright?’’ Seth asked worriedly.
‘’uh-hmm’’ Adam murmured without looking at his husband. He then rested his head on Kris’ shoulder, closing his eyes and hummed in contentment. Kris stiffened for a while, but relaxed after he felt that familiar feeling again. which he really missed so much, but had been feeling that a lot lately. With their closeness these past couple of months, he felt he was almost home... almost.
When they arrived at the hotel, Seth came out quickly and waited for Adam to get out of the car, too. Kris stepped aside when Adam came out to give Seth the chance to guide his husband out of the car, and to their suite.
But when Adam saw it was Seth waiting for him, he frantically turned his head in search for Kris.
‘’where’s K-‘’ when he saw him, he let out a relieved breathe and walked up to him. ‘’let’s go, Kris.’’
But Kris didn’t move, he was looking at Seth. The pain in his eyes were unbearable. That was how he felt years ago. He couldn’t do this. He needed to at least give the man the respect he deserved... and he had some things to sort out too. That was his main reason to joined this tour, and that wouldn’t change. He had to know his priorities, what he really wanted in his life. What would be his purpose.
‘’babe?’’ he heard Adam whispered. He looked up at him, he saw the rejection in Adam’s eyes that broke his heart then and there. Adam already knew what was going on in his head, he knew what he was going to tell him. Kris felt so exhausted all of a sudden and just wanted to go to his bed and cry.
‘’just go, Adam. Go to your husband.’’ Adam grasp at his hand, as if it would change his mind. But he squeezed it instead and nudge at Seth’s direction. He glanced at his husband, and when he looked back at Kris, he nodded slowly. Adam was walking backward until their twined fingers needed to let go. Adam and Seth walked to the hotel’s entrance as He stood there once again broken and wrecked.
Kris didn’t sleep much that night. He was really thinking everything and sorting his next move. Later that night, he came to a conclusion that whatever he and Adam might still feel, it would always lead to the fact that Adam was still married.
He wanted to be happy, too, and that he would accomplished what made him agreed to this job in the first place. He needed to honor his promised that he gave to someone not long ago. A promised that he thought would make him whole again.
In the suite 2 floors above Kris’ room, Adam came inside quietly, fully realizing his actions in front of his husband. That Seth already knew who Kris was. That he couldn’t tame his feeling for Kris anymore, that his heart and soul was screaming for his name. He slowly undressed himself, waiting for the unexpected from Seth. He honestly didn’t know what Seth was going to do with him after what he had done.
‘’mind to tell me what was that all about?’’ Seth asked him as Adam unbuttoned his shirt. He stopped his hand and raked it instead to his already mussed hair and took a deep shaky breath. He turned around, looking at his calm husband. Calm, but his eyes said the opposite. Adam’s heart just broke at the sight of it.
How many times he needed to crushed someone who truly loved him? how many times he would make someone else’ life a living hell because he was so selfish?
He was so lucky that despite he’d hurt Kris before, he still took a risk and agreed to be in each other’s life again.
He was so lucky he was married to Seth who gave him the moon and the stars, and who loved him so much despite the fact he knew he wouldn’t loved him back.
But what he would do, if he didn’t have that luck again? what he would do if he didn’t have another chance to straightened all his mistakes? Could he stand losing everything?