support systems don't work.

[imnotyour_starx]

I can honestly say that I don't really know what it feels like to have a support system. So many people have preached to me about how necessary it is, and how much it can help me to "get better". Well, seeing as how my family is a complete dud, and I can't rely on anyone else, I am feeling very screwed. I don't know how I have put myself into this

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[scriblingdreams]

So I know how you feel. You know how horrible I was last week. You should hear the tearjerking message I left jeff on his phone friday afternoon before he picked me up. Did you get my message? Because I feel badly for not being with you this weekend. There is no stability in my life. I understand that. My dad came home friday and I was freaking out. So Jeff and his irishfriend who speaks gaelic picked me up and I got fucked up. waay fucked up. that's the only thing that really ever makes me feel any better. really better. that and conversation. I was feeling great earlier today and now I feel like I need something again. I need support too. I've been without it so long that I am living party of one all too well. That's why I can't sleep and I drink too much. You should have seen everyone at the party. People were looking at me like "oh my god.. how is she that drunk?" I didn't even feel the bud. I need you. You were so good for me last week. I couldn't have gotten through without you. I guess what I'm saying is that I'd like to be

[hampsterface]

The light is right here bitch. I know I havent been a very consistant or stable support system thanks to dear ole Grease but in all seriousness J dizz, I am always always here. Please call me and talk to me whenever somethings up, I dont care how small it is. I want to listen and do whatever I can to help.

[jitterbabi1013]

i know you dont want to hear me preach, and im not trying to tell you anything that is going to be wildly insightful and change your life - or anything you probably havent heard before- but i think to create a support system you have to be able to trust people and let them know you trust them. it doesnt have to be your family, because, while some many peoples support comes from their families, many peoples support comes from friends. and trust me darling, we're here for you, i know i am, my phone is always on. im not trying to be your support system or force myself in to that role for you-but if there is ever anything i can do for you, you know i will.
luv from my heart to yours
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the wendys pencil?

[pianomatt7]

We're all searching for the light. Some find it more quickly than others, some stumble and take longer, some never find it, that's just a fact. I know very few people who I believe have found it. There's really not much I can say beyond I love you and I desperately hope we can hang out this summer, but I did want to tell you this: You are most welcome to come to my graduation party. It's this sunday from 1ish-6ish. (Ok, I'm a bastard because I'm using your emotional post as a message board, and I apologize, but it's the easiest way I can always get in touch with you without touching that blasted telephone object). Hope life's goign well. School's almost over for ya for a while!

Re: the wendys pencil?

[imnotyour_starx]

the wendys pencil is the light.
i would be delighted to attend your party. memories, eh? haha.
i love you, matt.