so i feel detached from myself..cause i dont know how to write in here anymore. i havent been "in tune" with my feelings i guess you could say for a really long time. a lot of what ive gone through in the past year..hasnt really been felt. well it was felt..it just wasnt 100 percent real..idk....i cant really explain the things i did..i dont regret ( Read more... )

shit. this is not happening the way i planned.
but hello...when does that ever happen?

so the shag wag is officially mine. :D
does that mean i finally have my freedom? hah you guys are so funny.
nope..my mom still wants me to get rides from everyone so she knows im not driving. the new excuse is that is that its economically better. fuck you!

and my pride is just about shattered. just once id like to be the one that was missed. just ( Read more... )

"so why would i care whether or not he loved me when he didnt really even know me? "

-the perks of being a wallflower

well thursday was andrew and me's seven months, and we hung out, and then hung out again on friday. and everything was fun. no fights or anything. we went to the lake and talked about us, and stuff in our lives.we didnt think too much about the future, and figured we'd just face it when it came, and enjoy every moment we together had til then. we ( Read more... )

so if someone would just choose for me how things are supposed to end up...that would be great.
cuz honestly, i sick of trying to figure this all out, and i just dont care anymore

k thanks

im afraid to write in here.
cuz whats really on my mind...i dont want known.
i want it to go away like it was never there at all.
i want to ignore it, and feel free.
please dont ask me what this is about.

happy belated valentine's day, though. lol hope it was good day for everyone, even if it was your single awareness day. i know i had fun...andrew got ( Read more... )

yay for no more bad moods!!
well i hope so...

idk..since the 3rd week of school, ive been in the worst mood, and i havent been able to shake it off. everything was depressing me, and i felt like things were gonna stay like that for a while. i couldnt snap out of it, and i was beginning to feel trapped and alone. very alone.
but thankfully...it all ( Read more... )

so im really kinda scared about the rest of my life.
cuz i realized that i have no dreams or goals for any of it.
and thoughts that i have about the future all end before i get out of college.
i have not made any decisions what so ever about life after college..and i barely have any about college for that matter.
i mean, i guess you could say i ( Read more... )

um not much to say.....

happy 5 months to me and andrew <3
<3<3<3<3

i have a new job at the green tomato.
i still work at brusters..but i might quit soon.

kayla paulson is pretty much amazing.

i cant wait til summer.

today was the last day off til like spring break. that sucks butt.

car-searching is going pretty well...soon soon soon!!

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