I am starting to feel like I am in a physcological thriller. I do not know who to trust. I have people telling me one thing and someone else something else entirely. The actions of those around me are communicating better then their words and they are not friendly. I am confused and want to believe what I am hearing but they are things that I have ( Read more... )

I never thought there was a limit as to how many close friends one can have. I never thought there was a set amount, but I guess I was wrong. You ask what is this magic number, well it is 3 of course. Everyone I talk to seems to only have 3 really close friends(funny how everyone is so eagar to tell me who their real friends are). Three, it is like ( Read more... )

I scored
24½%
on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!Take the test here!

I know I have taken this test before......I do not feel like looking at my past score.

All I have to say is AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH goddamnit, fuckinhg fuck!

Fuck being thin. Fuck being pretty. Fuck having sex. Fuck feeling good. Fuck work. Fuck friends. Fuck Ben. Fuck sleep. Fuck tv. Fuck smoking. Fuck coffee. Fuck Starbucks. Fuck my family. Fuck my lawyer. Fuck my cell phone. Fuck my bills. Fuck music. Fuck food. Fuck going out. Fuck movies. Fuck playing pool. Fuck swimming. Fuck rian. Fuck clouds. ( Read more... )

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Well I was supposed to have the babies this past weekend but "Daddy" decided in was not a good idea for me to have them anymore at my house for the weekends. Even though I had only had them once for two days since this whole 3 ring circus has begun. I was told I would have them for the next 2 weekend at my house. I made no plans with anybody ( Read more... )

I am slowly falling apart. I miss my children. I miss my friends. I miss my life. I miss feeling ok. The sting of what has happened with "daddy" and I has not worn off yet. The pain is still sinking in. And I think I have lost my mind. I think of "daddy" with fond memories of when we first got together, and then look at where we are now and I feel ( Read more... )

Ever get the feeing like you are running out of time? But are not quite sure why you feel that way. There is so much I want to do and I feel that if I do not do it now I never will get to. I have been calling people allot more lately to hag out. And I guess it is all part of the same thing, if I do not hang out with them now I may not get to at all ( Read more... )

Oh I want to thank everyone who helped make my wedding day so wonderful. Thank you to everyone who came, I am so happy you could share that day with Ben and I. And to Becca for without her there would have been no wedding. She went out of her way in the midst of everything else in her life took time and money to make sure my wedding day was a good ( Read more... )

I am married!!!!! I am currently on my honey-moon. Yes, I know I should not really be on the computer on my honey-moon, but he is playing video games and I am on here. One hour a day of doing your own thing really makes a difference. I have never (aside from the birth of my kids) been so happy. And god is sex fucking great. Sorry I know no one ( Read more... )