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Jan 20, 2003 15:45

today i've been thinking of everything i could do, and at the same time it makes me desperately happy and desperate in so many ways. all those people i could meet, all those places i could see, everything. and no matter how i'm trying to describe it will end up sounding terribly banal somehow. so i guess it's better not to describe it this time, i' ( Read more... )

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you never looked so sane anonymous January 20 2003, 07:17:36 UTC
oh andi,
you are my saviour today!
i was feeling sad on the way home after i had met a friend over a cup of coffee. she always upsets me with the way she has turned out to be, so different from how i used to know&love her. i was sitting in a bus and to keep my head straight i started making lists of the people i saw. but my lists ended up making me even more miserable so i needed other lists, of comfortable words. i have made dozens, i trust them very much. much more than old friends, i'm afraid.
the lists didn't work this time but after reading your entry i feel calmer. you made me remember . . .. .. as i like to put it. . .i will always save time for a single blink. pus-times-ten. gelsomina

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imperial January 20 2003, 22:24:17 UTC
ohh, thank you!

i'm afraid of people who change like that. and you give a little secret part of yourself to every person you love and when they change it feels like they're changing that part of you too, and somehow thinking about it fills my mind with sadness.

puss! ♥

xxox ox ox xxxx x
andi

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scarydemongrr January 20 2003, 10:23:49 UTC
". . it makes me desperately happy and desperate in so many ways. all those people i could meet, all those places i could see, everything. ."

i feel the same way. i feel that there are so many things that i could do. so many places i can be, want to be. i feel like i am wasting away my life. and then i realize, i will get my chance. and everything seems so wonderful again.

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imperial January 20 2003, 22:28:49 UTC
i'm trying not to feel that wasting away my life feeling feeling. because i think, when i feel like it, i'm really wasting away my life with that feeling. i'm just trying to continue building my dreams,

xxox ox ox xxxx xx x
andi

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