So even though nothing special really happened today, I had a lot of small but very nice Valentine's Day related events occur, and I'm going to have to go ahead and say that this was a very good day.

I am very content, and hopeful, and I really like this. This is a good feeling.

:D

Sooooo... I am about to go out on my first first date. Not a typo. It's not my first date, because I've for sure been on dates before...but with people who were already my friend-turned/turning-boyfriend. I've never had to do that "let's get to know each other and see where this goes" thing before. It was always "we already know each other and/or ( Read more... )

2010, you are on a fucking roll. Have a great year! Don't ever change. I mean it.

(Get it, it's like that episode of Lizzie Maguire with the yearbooks and she realizes Gordo loves her and it means I love 2010...yeah...

Sorry.)

So I was thinking of my resolutions for this year, which are as follows:

1) Be more glamorous. I'd like to be more put together and stylish. It's fun to dress up, and it makes me feel good about myself, so why the hell not, right? Plus if all goes as planned, I'll be living in Chicago next year.

2) Be more organized. I always say this. This year it's ( Read more... )

2010:

Already more fun than all of 2009.

Lately, I've been feeling very...domestic. I don't know. All I want to do is cook, and clean. And get married. Lately I can't stop thinking about how much I want a family...how much I want a blonde little boy, and two brothers for him to rough around with. I want three boys, just like in Legends of the Fall. And a little sister for them to look ( Read more... )

I'm sick. Again. And so I've spent the whole day sitting around watching crappy, sappy movies and crying my eyes out.

I need to come up with a plan. A "let's focus on improving myself instead of remembering how happy I used to be and hating that the reason for that happiness has removed himself from the picture" plan. I need to get better.

I want to ( Read more... )

Dear Jessie's Heart:

I would greatly appreciate it if you'd stop conspiring against me. Please?

Thanks,
Jessie's Emotional Well-Being

I am falling apart.

Honestly. Here are the things I've suffered in the past month:

-at least seven separate cases of having what is likely an allergic reaction to a food I have not identified yet, which consists of me feeling fine, and then suddenly feeling like there is a stone in my stomache, becoming violently ill until I am dry heaving, and then ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago, I realized something that was rather terrifying:

I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life.

For so long, all I had thought to do, all I had wanted to do, what I lived to do, was to write. I wanted to be a writer. I wanted to spend my life in front of a typewriter, blazing my way through books and drawing everything I could from ( Read more... )