after last night i remember why ive tried to avoid shows like that. otherwise, saves the day let me dowwwwn. alkaline trio, however, did not. im gonna light a fire under my ass and rearrange my room and possibly call cox so i can watch tv in there too. im sick of this living room.

i really do wish it was just because i dont like to see other people happy but thats not it at all. i think i just need everyone to see the world through my eyes for one day. just one. and then come talk to me. kthanks.

i need a sandwich in my life.

anyone know a good psychiatrist? i cant even figure myself out. ive got a lot of tricks up my sleeve. hahahahahaskdjhaskdh. at least i can laugh at my mistakes, right? well not to their faces. quit leaving me unsupervised is really my only excuse to anyone ever. aside from all that bs. i took sadie to the vet this morning because she threw up and i ( Read more... )

im losing my sense of self pretty quickly.

aside from that. i dont understand why i can say exactly what im thinking all of the time but not when it comes to the one thing that is actually important to me and that is making me more and more crazy every single day. that's all. have a great day.

so sadie is picking up all of oscar's habits. he eats her food, she eats his food. he begs for people food, she steals people food out of your mouth. and they hug each other. what the hell is going on here. as for the end of the month, it can pretty much suck it. i dont like feeling poor.

im dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb.

also, i dont understand why i am not tired. im runnin on 2 hours of sleep and 16 hours of work. but all i really want in my life is a sandwich and you to come home.

theres a half eaten rabbit on my fire place.
thats all.

oh and apparently the weiner pets have coordinated their sleep patterns already.
pretty gay, if you ask me.

i only go after things/people that are impossible.
do i just strive to be dissapointed
or do i think i am better than i really am?

i just would like to know what is going on,
that's all.

everything went the way i wanted it to yesterday so i could stop being so melodramatic. well, unless you count losing half of my blood out of my hand as a bad thing. that shit was disgusting. a wine bottle exploded on me, who does that happen to? i mean really? im just glad i have friends with pain pills bc otherwise i dont know if id be able to ( Read more... )

when nothing goes the way i hope it will tomorrow im going to call molly maid and get an estimate.

for real.
i mean if she wont clean up my life
id settle for my bathroom.