Today I'll write about how I feel...rather than what's goin on...I feel like I'm losing control of my life again...my depression is back more than ever and i'm cryin so much more...I'm sad and pissed off right now and very afraid to lose someone I care so dearly about. I'm happy, but not at all...as you can see I'm a very confused person indeed. I ( Read more... )

...Yeah so...lets see Sunday was 2 months for me and Kenny...we spent all day together...Monday I went out shopping with My mom and Nico all day..I got 8g ear rings...my mom really hates them, but they're not her ears. Tuesday was a really good day...although I found out my mom really doesn't trust me as much as she says she does. I told her I was ( Read more... )

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....I feel like I should be happy...I mean I have so many things going good for me in my life right now, yet I'm still really depressed. I've been like this a ( Read more... )

Yesterday Was Pretty good....It was one month with Kenny...I'm so happy. It seems like it's been longer than a month, but maybe it's just because I see him everyday and then some. All day Wednesday he was with me. From about 12:30 till 10 at night...he even stayed at my karate for 3 boring hours. He's supposidly joining...but I'll believe it when I ( Read more... )

I have a shit load of friends planning on getting married. MOst of them haven't been together more than 4 months. It's kind of annoying...One Of my friends has only been with the guy 2 months and they're getting married next year. I honestly think people these days are just In love with the IDEA of being in love. They don't want to take the time to ( Read more... )

Ok well...yesterday sucked for the most part....After 6th period yesterday I got really depressed (probally shouldn't have had grapefruit juice) but It didn't go away till the end of 8th. Then I came home...and needless to say...Ended up pissed off again...I went for a walk...to get rid of the anger (which never really helps) I was so pissed I ( Read more... )

ok well I haven't updated in a while. Um On Tues. the 18th Kenny from Oconnor asked me out. He's really sweet and I care about him alot. My family and friends all like him. He lives a little down the street, and comes over alot. Anyway I make Mike cry...Looks like he really did care about me. I'm so fucking shocked that there is actualy someone out ( Read more... )

Ok well...Me and Mike had gotten back together before the Kiss and Aerosmith concert...which was back at the start of October..I think. Well anyway we were together awhile then got in a fight on Monday...which then led to me breaking up with him. I truely regret that...although people have said I'm better off without him..I just dont' feel that way ( Read more... )