yay so my apartment is final...thank god. im really pretty excited. im also really excited for the clinical course this summer and my new job. it was depressing though today. i went to "orientation" and watched 3 hours of videos by myself on how to take care of (dying) old people. i actually started to cry a little in the room; at least i was alone ( Read more... )

i should be studying...i really should. but my motivation is running on 1%. ha oh well. im rather giddy i suppose. i just got an email from jess, which is interesting because an hour ago, i was walking along and thinking 'i miss jess, i need to call/email her' and she had an email waiting for me about the exact things i was going to say. happens a ( Read more... )

well the list of crap is slowly being whittled down one by one. i got the job as a visiting nurse doing mostly hospice. im anticipating that it'll have it's depressing moments, but at least it's better for the resume, closer to my field, and its NOT the bon-ton. i get to miss class on friday to go home for orientation and watch 2 hours of videos ( Read more... )

I don't know what it is. i'm assuming it's some sick, twisted, perversion with some people that i just can't seem to comprehend ( Read more... )

i really should be studying for my psych exam tomorrow, but im fried. im just about ready to fall over. i hate presentations more than almost anything academically. i have a spanish one thursday and a nursing one tuesday and nothing will be able to assuage me until they're both done. added to insurmountable piles of homework and that evil term ( Read more... )

bitch got what she deserved.

i just keep finding excuses NOT to do my presentation outline. i just spent half an hour on an email. the original got deleted when i sent it saturday and was sent as a blank, so the recipient had asked me to recount. argh. so tired of school. i had a spanish quiz today that i could have done better on, so the professor is giving us a chance ( Read more... )

welp, malex dumped me last night, denied it, and was nice to me today. im starting to seriously wonder if he has some form of bipolar disorder. perhaps he needs some pills to mellow him out so he's too confused to be mean, ha. although he did make a very elaborate excuse regarding porn. i was too tired to argue really...i just said 'well if you ( Read more... )

happy easter, loves! im freaking out about school work. tis bad you see, because im like 'ha im so burnt-out that i dont care anymore' *doesnt do anything* well the easter bunny came bearing a hello kitty towel and matching washcloths and candy in hello kitty heads. since the sister dislikes hello kitty, her theme was penguins. haa cute. i ( Read more... )

i couldn't sleep last night. malex made me cry again, until 2:30am until it was replaced by seething rage and i saw myself digging his eyes out....after that imagery, i cut my nails...for everyone's safety haha. then i was worrying until 4:30, fell asleep and got up at 8...and here i sit at home because i still can't sleep ( Read more... )