Well today is the superbowl and I wasn't going to get to watch it, but now Jill and I are going to her friend Kim's house and she tempted me with rum and rootbeer. I've never had that combination before, but it sounds intriguing. Plus I haven't drank in like three weeks so this should be interesting. I'm going running right after this which is ( Read more... )

Well Sunday I was horrible, Monday I was really bad, Tuesday I was pretty good, Wednesday I was very good, yesterday I was aaammaaazing, and today I'm kinda feeling depressed again. I think it must be the shitty weather because shitty weather always gets me in shitty moods. I love rain, don't get me wrong, but I love the nice, warm summer rain. ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I ruined everything and it's all my fault.

But you broke my heart.

i just wrote the longest entry in the entire world and then i tried to check my mail and it erased it and i may cry right now. but i think this is pretty much the gist of it and wow i must be pretty friggen bored and antsy and awake to be willing to rewrite this entire monstrosity (haha) over again ( Read more... )

omg! i can't stand this not knowing shhiiiit anymore we need to talk yes i know you are obsessed with in person but we need to talk nooowww i need to know what is going through your head and where we are and where we want to be because i thought you thought the same things i did but now i guess you didnt because somehow we aren't speaking and we're ( Read more... )

I am so thoughtful lately. I don't know what spurred this chain of constant "wonderings", but it's like I can't do anything anymore without analyzing what I did, what I said, what he did, what she said. I don't just do it with events in my life, but with everything. It's almost like I'm subconsciously wanting to become the deep-philosophical- ( Read more... )

I am such a fuckup. I bet by now no one belives me when I say I don't mean to hurt people and I don't mean to do the things I do, but it's true. It may not seem like it anymore because it also seems I've gotten pretty good at it, which I am definetly not proud of or happy about. I don't know what to do. I am so confused about what I want and what ( Read more... )

check out my journal title, it says right there that i dont lie. the reason it says i dont lie is because i dont. i absolutely hate it when people think i lie because i have never been and will never be a liar. i hate liars with a passion. i may change my mind a lot, nevermind a lot, try allll the time. i also may be confusing and contradicting in ( Read more... )

I want to go home. It is Wednesday and I just woke up at 12:00 because I have no class. I actually only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 9:30-12:30 and from 2:00-5:00 and then on Thursdays I have a discussion group from 1-2. I thought this was so sweet, however now I am thinking that what the hell am I going to do with myself for my four ( Read more... )

Whaaat the fuck did i just do?