so these past 2 weeks have sucked sooooo incredibley bad...i dont know how to be ok with this whole thing. it just hurts so bad. i dunno.....i miss him a lot.....i really hope the pain goes away soon....and i dont know how i am supposed to be there for him when it kills me to even look at him....but i guess it's more worth his happiness. i dunno. ( Read more... )

wow, i really never have anything good to say when writing on live journal......so i am not really going to say anything....i had a really bad week :-(.....thats really all i have to say. just i had a bad fucking week.being single sucks.

whenever i am happy it is always brought down by sadness. this sucks ass :-(....

wow, my lj is fricken awesome bc of leah.......haha so if u wanna know what i have done look at my xanga.

. i miss leah a lot, i wish that she was here, and i know that she is just a call or im away...but its not the same, i want her to be here...or me there, which i might do next year, move back to MA in with Debbie and Leah, that is if my mom permits it. I wish that i could right now...if she was here she wouldnt even have to ask if i was ok, she ( Read more... )

i love spencer and leah, thats all u need to know

k so i guess i i loveyou leah should have updated sooner. but i love you leah i like xanga better. sorry live journal. i went to spencers today and i love you leah and it was really fun. incredibl fun i love you leah tommorow i have a stupid christmas party i love you leah and im going with my i love you leah brother and my i love you leah sister ( Read more... )

ok, so i guess this is going to be my 2nd journal, which i will probably neglect to update, but i will try my hardest. It has been a really really tough couple of days.... ive been crying like crazy...but somehow that word scares the crap out of me right now. its extremely hard to be happy about thanksgiving because the ONLY reason i was even ( Read more... )