well today was interesting. woke up and ate cereal and such but i didnt go run. no time cuz i had to leave at like 11 to go to bens lunch thing at Diggers. so i left my house at about 10:55 and got to johns and jacque and ben were already there. so john and jacque got in my car and we headed out. we beat ben to pacos...haha rookie biotch. we found ( Read more... )

well today was fun. went to lax with ben and john. john drove thank goodness. my car is acting up again. GOD DAMNIT LIGHTS! so we went to best buy first and i returned a dvd and cd shelf for a different one. then we went over to the mall and i bought my ozzfest ticket and we perused the shops for a bit. then it was off to little caesars for ( Read more... )

well today was ok. had alot of alone time. i ran, showered and then kinda bummed around a bit. then i got the urge to watch Jurassic Park. yay for me. nothin beats t-rex and raptors. i always wanted a raptor for a pet. with those cute little smiles and shit. then if someone pissed me off i could introduce them to my dinosaur. ahemm, anywho... then ( Read more... )

well today was kinda...idk awkward at times but ok. today was kinda the same starting out. i woke up and ate cheerios, then i ran and showered. then i really didnt do anything at all till ben called me and asked me if i wanted to do anything. i didnt really care so he just came out to my house. we did nothing. lol. just sat and listened to music ( Read more... )

this song really hits home with me. now i know i have friends who care and such. but i still feel alone at the end of it all and maybe that will change. idk. but this song is excellent and im really feeling it right now ( Read more... )

well today was pretty good. i fumed earlier this morning about last night and my whole tearing of a new asshole for everyone that pisses me off. but i ran and felt a bit better. kinda lost myself in music for a bit. basically thats all i did till i went into town at about 3 and thats when the fun began. ben called me and said something about taking ( Read more... )

here i am, alone. mad, frustrated, hurt, sad, and at my wits end for all of the bullshit in my life. im sick of people. im sick of their illusions and their games. their never ending bullshit thats fed down my throat with a fucking stick. IM TIRED OF BEING HURT. of being wiped on the metaphorical windshield like a bug that ran into it. i wear my ( Read more... )

well im sitting here bored off my ass. i was supposed to go hang out with rebecca finally but she got offline before we had anything planned for sure but oh well i guess. i keep on trying to make this work, getting together and hanging out i mean...and it never does. i dont think she knows how much i want to see her before she leaves. just to see ( Read more... )

yea im eating Cheerios as i write this, so this is a first. anyways, the past few days have been pretty good. went to pacos cookout on tuesday after going to riverside with tanner, denise, kenzie, alex, ashley, joel, john, josh, jacque, ian and ben. best part of that were the batting cages. pacos cookout was pretty fun though. jacque stepped in poo ( Read more... )

yea about the subject title...i was just thinking about this lyric from a slipknot song and i really think its true for me. for my loved ones... i would give my life for them. im not afraid of death and every time i take another dangerous chance in life, i get even ballsier. i cant really explain it becuz its complicated, but i was just thinkin ( Read more... )