shutting down

[in_my_shadow]

I've always been a pretty open book. Anyone was welcome to my opinions, thoughts, emotions, whatever, as long as they wanted to be. I've also never been at a loss for words. But over the past 6 months, and during the past month especially, I see myself just shutting down. I don't talk about things anymore. I don't use my journals. I don't

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[a_man_divided]

I saw this coming a while back. I thought there were a couple windows. I know you saw me trying to reach in even trying to wake up the Gloria that I met such a long time ago. There is no doubt in my mind you have changed. I won't mince words and say it's a good thing. I don't like the direction that you are going and I would try and stop you but I think I know you well enough to know my words will not do much good. I still feel strongly about you as my friend and I have a very real set of emotions that come to mind when I think about you. However they tend to fade with the new "you" that has emerged. You know that I am the last person to walk away from things but with you I don't know that fighting to stay and show you another door or path is much good anymore. I always will wish you nothing but good things and all the best in the world but I know that there is not much that I can say or do to influence it. So I just step back.

Baby steps

[m0rg4n]

Gloria, you've got to have SO MUCH going on in your head and heart

[klee2113]

i've gone through something like that before. its a confusing place to be. But its ok to pull back from everybody sometimes. Just make sure it doesn't cross over into destructiveness, the place where you ruin relationship that can never be repaired. Gaurd yourself against that, but allow yourself to feel the things you feel/think.