some have changed, some forever not for better

[in_other_words]

i still feel awful.
i still haven't talked to anyone.
no one calls.
and i've decided (as i usually do) not to call them.
it's not worth it.
i think i've chased everyone that once cared about me away because all i talk about is how bad i have it, how bad i feel, how lucky they are, how much i hate everything (life, myself, my situation...you know,

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Erin...nothing you can ever say can erease my memories of you.

[childprey_kaoru]

You are such a beautiful person inside and out, if I could ball up all your problems and blow them away I would. I love and miss you, and when i see you next I'll hug you so tight and never let go.
~Chris

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[anonymous]

I picked the latter...and just so you know, I have a new live journal...it's still a work in progress but I'll get there. Thanks to Andrew.
PS..Thx for the note on prom night...I thought of you and last year's prom and the black and white photos...the memories.
I love you, and sometimes when I sit myself down with the intent to listen to good music and cry, I think of you and wish you were still here...cuz that would make it a little easier to grow up.
Just know you aren't the only one in pain right now...~Jules