i wish for once, you would let me be there for you. id feel much more needed. heh, yeah rite. i just hope you know that i would be, and will be if you ever do need me.

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thank you for letting me listen, it means more than you know. ill always be here if you need me in the future.

i just got in from sitting on the back of my car playing guitar under the stars - i effing love acoustic. it was very relaxing. yay for guitar. nite kids...

yay, got a job at dairy queen, i start monday... cant wear the lip ring or nail polish to work tho...bleh, the ring i can do, but the nails - i guess ill paint em when i dont work, and take it off b4 i do...haha ( Read more... )

sad news recently, with both of my Best friends, and two freshly broken hearts. im too far to sit by either one's side, thats the worst feeling ever. i feeel like a bad friend for not being there. im so sorry to you both, i want to be there for you ( Read more... )

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well, its been a lil while, lets see what i got... missed school today (sniff, sniff) b/c my stepbro john was supposed to be leaving and moving back up north, but we talked it out and hes stayin, and my mom took me him n tommy out to lunch, and we did the whole apology thing, we all said shit we didnt mean and whatnot....then went to see The ( Read more... )

"cmon, use me more, i like it...
cmon, abuse me more, i like it..."

"well its getting harder, and harder to breathe..."

"i wish i was you, not i"

"i feel so useless"


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took my mom to the mall today and got new pants, yay, and socks, yay, and a book, yay. got jons new ep today - "living in black and white" and i recomend it to anyone/everyone who hearts acoustic like me :-) of course mine was free but its def worth 3 bucks to all who have it. apart from that, im very upset/hurt to see all of my "friends" say im ( Read more... )

i feel like im dying inside. i cant keep living like this. something bad is going to happen...

if guys were allowed to cry, i think i would.

i seriously dont know when was the last time this hurt so bad.

i need someone, anyone at all, fuck fuck fuck

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in response to my previous post and such, ive come to the following conclusion: the world changes people, and perhaps i was caught up in this. i also think that i have a lot more troubles/worries/things to deal with now than before, which causes me to be stressed a lot, and less able to deal with bullshit, possibly giving off the impression that i ( Read more... )