arrested again last night...

i need to quit being so fucking lame.

i loved seeing you in my dreams last night. i did not love the fact that you made me cry.

getting drunk to forget that we're millions of miles apart.

fucking fantastic.

srsly

freaking the fuck out. like... the fuck out.

i don't understand people and people don't understand me.

i just can't find the words to express myself anymore.

i guess i can, i got tons in my head i want to scream out. i guess i just don't think anyone is listening or really cares any more.

lately i've been enjoying sleeping over being awake at all hours of the day.

today is not the case. had another one of those dreams that made me have no real preference.

why be awake when life is predictable?
why be asleep when it makes you feel horrible?

i'll let you know when i find a state of being i'm content with.

every fucking attempt i make at getting the fuck out of this disgusting fucking town ends in complete destruction.

i'm starting to think thats all there is to my life.

complete

fucking

destruction.

i've been posting a lot of private entries as of late.

only because i don't want to appear completely pathetic on the internet.

hey! asshole! when the FUCK are you going to learn?

srsly! what the fuck is your problem?

'aw boo hoo life is so sad and miserable.' QQ

suck it the fuck up. you know whats wrong. do something about it!