:( That is incredibly unfair. I don't want a child, but people like that girl you wrote about, who abuse life as she does, really disgust me. As a teacher,m it's pretty common to have to deal with really irresponsible parents. It sounds like you would be one of the good ones!
-hugs- Thanks. I appreciate that. It's just hard to deal with when you see people who you know are just...clueless, having babies left and right and I can't even get a positive on a damn test.
I'm trying so hard to be happy for her, because "baby, yay!" But I just can't help but feel overwhelmingly jealous. Like, when there are couples (like Jessie) that have babies I'm instantly like, "YAY! CONGRATS!" And I genuinely feel happy. A smidging jealous, but I don't get worked up about it. Is that normal or am I just crazy?
As for the doctor, we agreed that if we don't have results by September we're going to make appointments for tests because that will technically be past our one year mark and a fertility specialist won't do anything for you unless you've been actively trying for one whole year and still see no results.
My goal, honestly, is to at least be a month along by Christmas 2011. I'll be 24 next year and I just don't want to wait until I'm 30 to have my first kid. If all I get is one by my 26th bday I'll be the happiest person alive.
No, I'd say for someone in your position (either wanting a child, but can't try for one yet or is currently trying and hasn't succeeded yet) it's normal to have a twinge of jealousy when someone you know (or even a stranger) is pregnant. They have something you want.
Just try not to let it get to you and focus on continuing toward your goal. It will happen, it just sometimes takes longer than it seems like it takes everyone around you, but you're still within the normal stretch of time.
Sucks when other people try to placate you and make you feel better by saying 'its not your time' blahblahblah. SO not helpful!
I am sorry that you can't get the one thing you want so badly. At least you sound like the sort of person that would treasure a child, not like your 'friend' who doesn;t seem to understand the preciousness of a life.
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I'm trying so hard to be happy for her, because "baby, yay!" But I just can't help but feel overwhelmingly jealous. Like, when there are couples (like Jessie) that have babies I'm instantly like, "YAY! CONGRATS!" And I genuinely feel happy. A smidging jealous, but I don't get worked up about it. Is that normal or am I just crazy?
As for the doctor, we agreed that if we don't have results by September we're going to make appointments for tests because that will technically be past our one year mark and a fertility specialist won't do anything for you unless you've been actively trying for one whole year and still see no results.
My goal, honestly, is to at least be a month along by Christmas 2011. I'll be 24 next year and I just don't want to wait until I'm 30 to have my first kid. If all I get is one by my 26th bday I'll be the happiest person alive.
Sorry for making that long-winded.
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Just try not to let it get to you and focus on continuing toward your goal. It will happen, it just sometimes takes longer than it seems like it takes everyone around you, but you're still within the normal stretch of time.
<3 you too, bitch. ;D
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I am sorry that you can't get the one thing you want so badly. At least you sound like the sort of person that would treasure a child, not like your 'friend' who doesn;t seem to understand the preciousness of a life.
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