boredom and sadness :(

Apr 14, 2005 22:09

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leosweetie5 April 15 2005, 16:33:17 UTC
aww lissa!! it's ok to cry!
at least you actually show your emotions...
i can't ever seem to be able to show mine...
like i'm ashamed of them or something...
and believe me, i don't think anyone thinks your stupid for crying over Mikey leaving...he seemed like a great guy and i've never even met him!!

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incu_rican April 15 2005, 17:34:11 UTC
yea...
but that's the problem, i don't want to show my emotions... like i really really really don't want to... i am ashamed of it, but i can't control it...

oh.. well

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jm2_2118 April 16 2005, 07:10:02 UTC
i wish i couldn't show my emotions either. i wish i didn't have to have someone to talk to and i could keep my feelings to myself, but i just can't and it makes me mad too cause sometimes things upset me and i don't want to cause a scene by walkin' away when we are all hanging out so i have to just sit there and try not to cry or look at anyone...

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jm2_2118 April 16 2005, 07:07:39 UTC
melissa, i feel ya. i get overly emotional a lot too. today i found myself staring out teh window liek God why do i have such a problem being alone and thinkin' how wendy and jay were movin' off campus and i would be all alone...i'll be on the t and just get all teary eyed and all i can do is just ask God why. but it helps me when i listen to praise and worship music or just think happy thoughts and about what I have been blessed w/. but I am more depressed than not and I feel liek i can't tell anyone up here about it cause they are all like u need to get over it or u need help so i just keep it to myself...but i'm sorry that mikey is gone...

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incu_rican April 16 2005, 23:59:36 UTC
yea...
i feel soo pathetic.. lol
it's okay tho...

...i cried all day yesterday too and he caught me...
it was so funny.. he was like "what's wrong dear??" i couldn't really talk tho,, cause u know how sometimes when u cry u can't really speak??
i finally got it out "i'm just really sad that ur leaving, that's all"
he just smiled and shook his head and gave me a hug..
he was a sweetheart about it.. saying bye to him sucked soo bad.. but oh well... that's life...

...u can always come to me when ur feeling emotional.. cause u know that me of all people wouldn't tell u to get over it ;)

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jm2_2118 April 17 2005, 00:12:18 UTC
lol. i miss u guys. no one up here has any sympathy. i can't wait till i come home even if it's only for a little while. sometimes it's so lonely up here and people are so sometimey and hypocritcal. i don't know if i'm ready for the world yet.

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incu_rican April 17 2005, 01:14:37 UTC
...yea.. i get the sense that they are like that too... very unreliable...
i think it just might be that u befriended the wrong people perhaps.. that they aren't all like that... it does suck tho
when are u coming down here...
i have two weeks off school before the summer semester and two weeks off before the fall semester.. and then i gradiate ^_^ yes.. i said gradiate...lol

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