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new development.... maybe
Well kids, I'm moving home.... maybe. The decision is not set in stone, but since there is no hurry to graduate any more, I do not believe that I am going ridiculously push myself this summer to graduate in August. I believe I am going to move home and finish up at IUS in the fall with my 12 credit hours. It's cheaper and right now that is what ( Read more... ) -
the decision
Well, I decided this morning that I'm not going to DC. I think it is the best for right now. It's not that I don't want to see Matt or that I'm mad a Matt it's just that I think this is the best thing for us at the time being. We need a chance to step back, reconstruct, and figure out what direction we are going to go in the future. I love him ( Read more... ) -
answer
God is so amazing. He really truly is. Not even an hour after I wrote the last post, I got my answer.... just friends... for now ( Read more... ) -
The God-shaped hole
That's right kids, it's back. I'm miserable, I'm unhappy, and most importantly I know why. Regardless of the act that I put on, the smiley face, the religious picture.... God is not in my life right now. I pray.... I don't listen, I ask advice... I refuse to listen, I attempt to be closer... and I push away ( Read more... ) -
don't know....
I haven't written in a while. I don't know what to say. I don't know what is going on. I don't want to rush into conclusions. But basically I feel like... no I'm not even going to say it. Because saying it makes it real. I just really really hope that Spring Break goes better than the last few weeks. -
question....
Some times I wonder when I really need the support of my family and friends where are you? -
so uncertain
I won't say that this has been the worst weekend of my life, because God knows I've been through a million worse things in my short little life span. But it has been bad. I sit here and wonder how Matt is doing and it kills me inside to know that he doesn't want to talk to me right now. I want to know if he is struggling like I am every minute ( Read more... ) -
*big deep breath*
So I have no idea what is going on right now. I'm more confused than I've ever been I believe. I'm not totally sure that things are going to be okay, but I am hoping that they will be. I'm trying not to worry, but I have to be honest it's not working. I'm really not to the point to discuss it ( Read more... ) -
so..yeah....
I haven't updated in a while. Matt and I have hit a rut. And I think now we are finally slowly crawling our way out of it. But it's still hard. I'm so stressed out about it and it's showing in my school preformance wish scares me for a whole variety of reasons. I don't even know what to say right now.
