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i'm still quitted smokings :~)

next hurdle - dealing with apnea again.

i've recently started playing world of warcraft - iz pretty cool.   although i fear it's taking time away from other video games and my very important porn "research"

later

|: i don't know what to do with myself :|   - repeat x ?

i am on day 9 i think, of chantix, the magical smoking cessation sensation sweeping the nation.

i don't have the occasional urge to smoke so much as the internal dialog that's asking me when this stupid game is gonna end so i can have a fucking smoke.

up until a week ago, if i was working on ( Read more... )

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so,

i have nothing to say, although alot of nothing.   drifting along my consciousness disappearing and turning to instinct?  no, more like impulse.  days without orders (work) are a series of impulses, not decisions.  i'm bored. i have no patience.
music, pictures, fast food, smoking, sleep and on occasion i think ( Read more... )

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all the ideas and images hurt my head. the beatles (with their trusty revolver) help to keep it somewhat sorted out but it doesn't keep out the fear of interruption or the bloodshot out of my eyes or the reality that sleep comes soon and MUST be followed by another week of work.

i hate having to keep correcting my self/thoughts.  can't stay ( Read more... )

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teh internets are to big - i just get lost in everything, especially photos.  i just love photo blogs.

the problem is i keep thinking "just a few more minutes"  but it never gets boring...

shit

again i had the idea to write cause i've been SOOOOO wired all night.  that was an hour ago and now the thrill is gone.

so here's an animooted jiffy jif

later,


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i finally did something semi-creative today.  just a video of myself lipsynced to MSI's you'll rebel to anything, but i'm happy with myself for doing something as opposed to just thinking about doing things.

maybe tomorrow i'll do more things.

i'm forcing myself to write - even though i don't want to.

i changed my layout tonite - it took for fucking ever - i really cannot decide sometimes.

to over simplify my life,  everyday is just a series of task to keep me distracted from thinking until i can finally go to sleep.

mmm sleep (homer voice)

later