i'm really depressed right now. i know its just my brain beating itself up. just some chemical bullshit that won't mean shit tomorrow. that doesn't change the way i feel right now.

i'm feelin rough
i'm feelin raw
i'm in the prime of my life.
let's make some music
make some money
find some models for wives.
i'll move to paris,
shoot some heroin
and fuck with the stars.
you man the island
and the cocaine
and the elegant cars.

this is our decision
to live fast and die young.
we've got the vision,
now let's have some fun.
yeah it' ( Read more... )

i've been slipping through the years
my old clothes don't fit like they once did
so they hang like ghosts
of the people i've been

it's like my heart can't be tamed
i fall in love every day
and i feel like a fool

i have to face the truth
that no one could ever look at me like you do
like i'm something worth
holding on to

life is crazy. i remember there was a time when i felt like life was just leaving me behind. that i was wasting my life waiting for it to start ( Read more... )

i know you don't care, but i miss you..

this weekend was.. ok. got to see my eugene crew, which was good. smoked spliffs, drank beers, floated the river. went to a party. this girl i have a huge crush on was there. she barely noticed me. next time.

i got in a car accident. dumbass didn't see me and turned across my lane. we hit head on. had to get my car towed. had to get tomorrow off ( Read more... )

i love how surprised people always are to find out i'm an engineer. i guess you don't expect that coming from a baby faced indie kid with gaged ears wearing a studded belt and a band t-shirt slamming beers at the tube..

..guess i just like to mix things up a bit.

this weekend was intense. some times people make me angry. some times people make me happy. that's life i suppose. this weekend was more of the angry ( Read more... )

last thursday was wicked fun. it was just like, portland took to the streets and reclaimed alberta. there were people everywhere, surrounded by art and music; some live, some djs too. it was amazing. and i thought portl;and couldn't get any cooler. shit. i'm going every last thursday from now on..

as it got dark we met up with this chick sarah met ( Read more... )

wow. it's really nice outside and i'm stuck inside eating cheap chinese food and cranking out renderings for a customer's trade show package. meh, whatever. i'm goin to last thursday tonight, which is a big art and beer thing goign on on alberta. should be sweet.

i'm in a much better mood lately. just kindof realized (again) that a) i have awesome ( Read more... )