I'm a girl and you're a boy lalalalalalala

[indievixen]

The Smiths remind me of college. I would go out tonight but I haven't got a stitch to wear.... Zach. Dan M. John OB. Reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Making mix CDs. Dancing until my hair was matted to my face and my clothes had to be peeled off.

I got confused, I killed a horse, I can't help the way I feel. Walking to the music building

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autumn, the smiths, bret easton ellis-we're the same person!

[jewelbox21]

i try so hard to like me better, now, and mostly i do. my friend sent a text to everyone tonight about going dancing, and it's like i question myself - do i even remember how? can you dance to 'smalltown boy' if you aren't an alcoholic malcontent? i know that i can, i truly do, but those times are so imprinted on my brain in such a specific way, it's like i'd hate to ruin them with sobriety.i don't know where i'm going, and i think that's the worst part. i know exactly where i have been, i know just how horribly horribly painful depression and anxiety and alienating eccentricity can be, and i also know the immense amount of romance contained in unreality. being sad to that extent doesn't skew reality completely for the worse, which most people who never experience it don't realize. and that's the seduction. but i feel like once i disentangled myself from that life, even though there are probably books and books of memories from it, i would rather feel things to the most passionate extent, even if the lack of self-distruction means a