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It's dark and I'm lonely
So cold, so alone
So much that I know now
I should have known then
But what does it matter
I won't try again
Indigo sat in the room it was black as pitch and she knew somewhere in the dark Ruby was there watching her silently. It was comforting- to an extent, at the same time she didn't want to hurt her. She drew her legs to her chest just sitting. She could feel someone touching her and as fast as she was she wasn't able to get a grip on the phantom hand. It was haunting her. She growled again and she heard Ruby shift in the chair she was in... "Petit.... there is only us." Indigo hissed at the word, "Someone else is here Ruby... I can feel them." Ruby clucked softly, "You letting him beat you Petit.... " Indi's mind whirled a mix of different curses and magics, but none of them revealed the other consciousness to her.... "Who Ruby?" Ruby's voice answered her from the darkness, "Kalfu. You sup'osed to be fightin' him Petit.... not lettin' him get the upper hand on ya."
All I remember
I wish I'd forget
Never say never
And that's what you get
Indi sobbed, she hurt so bad she could see things that weren't there out of the corner of her eye, the hallucinations were getting worse. She could hear ruby moving about in the room starting to make some tea again. The though of more of that tea turned her stomach, it tasted like dirt and gravel, but it did relax her... She wanted to claw her way out of her skin, jsut like he had said, "Sometimes you just feel like you need to explode out of your skin...." but she knew in the back of her mind where everything was still a bit the same that Ruby would hold her and wrap her in the long towel and then she was completly helpless.... then they could find her....
I tried to stall
And took the fall
Wouldn't make the call
Now I've got nothing left at all
The voices howled in her brain like an unholy chorus all chortling and laughing something had set this off, and the voices in her head were having a grand laugh about all of it. She tore at her hair holding her hands pressing to the side of her skull trying desperatly to hold the voices inside. She could feel the dull hum of sleep upon her, but she knew if she slept now she would be vunerable... they would find her... they were looking for her... had to keep moving.... She didn't hear Ruby walk up on her and felt the warm hand of the woman on her shoulder, she slammed her head against the wall as she jumped back from the hand.... unsure if it were real or fake.... and as she sat there a moment stunned she heard herself asking Ruby if she were real..... she thought she saw the woman nodding as she fell unconscious.
I thought I'd win
But I gave in
I lost again
Now I've got nothing left at all
She was laying in bed with Ebony, curled around her as she awoke... she sat up curiously, where was Ruby? She looked to Ebony and then the room then the door... she stood up and moved closer to the ajoining door... she knocked on it, she heard the hatian voice call out, "Petit that you?" Indi found her voice, "Yes Ruby.... can I come in?" The woman answered back, "Of course!" Indi wandered in cautiously still trying to orientate herself- how long had she been unconscious.... "Ruby... where are we?" The woman looked worried as Indi asked her question, "Vegas Petit.... remember?" Indigo shook her head slightly, "No Ruby." She wandered out crawling back in the bed with Ebony. Indi looked at Ebony nuzzling her, small tears forming in the corner of her eyes, she couldn't understand what was going on... things were jumbled and it was bad.... she looked at Ebony and smiled.... she remembered Ebony... and Ruby and things that she and Papa had done and Marcus.... Honey... mentally going down the list of people she checked off in her mind making sure she remembered everyone.
Nothing's the matter
It won't happen here
You'd think you'd know better
Blind to the fear
She was in Aidan's head, she tried to remember why... she was angry with him.... she remembered that... he did something... but the cold black of Aidan's head snapped her protections like a twig, she could feel the rush of power of the dark she could sense the thrill of the hunt, the animalistic feelings of being pent up with the dark for so long. She shuddered softly the dark engulfing her like the hard passionate caress of a long forgotten lover. She called out to him as in the mindscape her fingernails legnthened to dark ichor colored claws and her teeth sharpened to razor like points... and she laughed, "Aidan.... I'm here where are you?" Finally he appeared to her like a demon from the abyss itself draconic wings spread out behind him as she moved to embrace him. "Nadia what are you doing here?" She laughed as she curled around him like a feral creature. "I don't remember.... but you did something that made me angry...." They talked and as they did so more and more of her sanity ebbed away like the tide.
I've lost my religion
Lost all I believe in
My memory's in shackles
She smelled the soft scent of ebony when she awoke from the dream, she clawed at her pillow but the long supple nails she had a few moments ago gone.... everything was normal again.... untill the phantom hand slid up her back starting at her bare hip, her startled movement woke the vigilant Ebony... she wanted to curl into a little ball and hide from the world... but instead she forced herself to talk to Ebony.... she told her of the memory loss and the issues of fantasy and reality, and none of it scared the woman away.... and that made Indi think. Maybe- just maybe it wasn't all dark. And Indi smiled as memories of Ebony and Starfall played in her head....
I'm down on my knees
It's dark and I'm lonely
So cold, so alone
So cold, so alone
So much that I know now
I should have known then
But what does it matter
I won't try again
Indigo sat in the room it was black as pitch and she knew somewhere in the dark Ruby was there watching her silently. It was comforting- to an extent, at the same time she didn't want to hurt her. She drew her legs to her chest just sitting. She could feel someone touching her and as fast as she was she wasn't able to get a grip on the phantom hand. It was haunting her. She growled again and she heard Ruby shift in the chair she was in... "Petit.... there is only us." Indigo hissed at the word, "Someone else is here Ruby... I can feel them." Ruby clucked softly, "You letting him beat you Petit.... " Indi's mind whirled a mix of different curses and magics, but none of them revealed the other consciousness to her.... "Who Ruby?" Ruby's voice answered her from the darkness, "Kalfu. You sup'osed to be fightin' him Petit.... not lettin' him get the upper hand on ya."
All I remember
I wish I'd forget
Never say never
And that's what you get
Indi sobbed, she hurt so bad she could see things that weren't there out of the corner of her eye, the hallucinations were getting worse. She could hear ruby moving about in the room starting to make some tea again. The though of more of that tea turned her stomach, it tasted like dirt and gravel, but it did relax her... She wanted to claw her way out of her skin, jsut like he had said, "Sometimes you just feel like you need to explode out of your skin...." but she knew in the back of her mind where everything was still a bit the same that Ruby would hold her and wrap her in the long towel and then she was completly helpless.... then they could find her....
I tried to stall
And took the fall
Wouldn't make the call
Now I've got nothing left at all
The voices howled in her brain like an unholy chorus all chortling and laughing something had set this off, and the voices in her head were having a grand laugh about all of it. She tore at her hair holding her hands pressing to the side of her skull trying desperatly to hold the voices inside. She could feel the dull hum of sleep upon her, but she knew if she slept now she would be vunerable... they would find her... they were looking for her... had to keep moving.... She didn't hear Ruby walk up on her and felt the warm hand of the woman on her shoulder, she slammed her head against the wall as she jumped back from the hand.... unsure if it were real or fake.... and as she sat there a moment stunned she heard herself asking Ruby if she were real..... she thought she saw the woman nodding as she fell unconscious.
I thought I'd win
But I gave in
I lost again
Now I've got nothing left at all
She was laying in bed with Ebony, curled around her as she awoke... she sat up curiously, where was Ruby? She looked to Ebony and then the room then the door... she stood up and moved closer to the ajoining door... she knocked on it, she heard the hatian voice call out, "Petit that you?" Indi found her voice, "Yes Ruby.... can I come in?" The woman answered back, "Of course!" Indi wandered in cautiously still trying to orientate herself- how long had she been unconscious.... "Ruby... where are we?" The woman looked worried as Indi asked her question, "Vegas Petit.... remember?" Indigo shook her head slightly, "No Ruby." She wandered out crawling back in the bed with Ebony. Indi looked at Ebony nuzzling her, small tears forming in the corner of her eyes, she couldn't understand what was going on... things were jumbled and it was bad.... she looked at Ebony and smiled.... she remembered Ebony... and Ruby and things that she and Papa had done and Marcus.... Honey... mentally going down the list of people she checked off in her mind making sure she remembered everyone.
Nothing's the matter
It won't happen here
You'd think you'd know better
Blind to the fear
She was in Aidan's head, she tried to remember why... she was angry with him.... she remembered that... he did something... but the cold black of Aidan's head snapped her protections like a twig, she could feel the rush of power of the dark she could sense the thrill of the hunt, the animalistic feelings of being pent up with the dark for so long. She shuddered softly the dark engulfing her like the hard passionate caress of a long forgotten lover. She called out to him as in the mindscape her fingernails legnthened to dark ichor colored claws and her teeth sharpened to razor like points... and she laughed, "Aidan.... I'm here where are you?" Finally he appeared to her like a demon from the abyss itself draconic wings spread out behind him as she moved to embrace him. "Nadia what are you doing here?" She laughed as she curled around him like a feral creature. "I don't remember.... but you did something that made me angry...." They talked and as they did so more and more of her sanity ebbed away like the tide.
I've lost my religion
Lost all I believe in
My memory's in shackles
She smelled the soft scent of ebony when she awoke from the dream, she clawed at her pillow but the long supple nails she had a few moments ago gone.... everything was normal again.... untill the phantom hand slid up her back starting at her bare hip, her startled movement woke the vigilant Ebony... she wanted to curl into a little ball and hide from the world... but instead she forced herself to talk to Ebony.... she told her of the memory loss and the issues of fantasy and reality, and none of it scared the woman away.... and that made Indi think. Maybe- just maybe it wasn't all dark. And Indi smiled as memories of Ebony and Starfall played in her head....
I'm down on my knees
It's dark and I'm lonely
So cold, so alone