i don't want him to leave. but in a way, i know he has to and this has to end. im so glad it happened though, i don't know how i got so lucky to find exactly what i was looking for even though i only had it for two months. i know going in that it couldn't last, so hopefully i protected myself enough to remember that when he's gone. the last thing i ( Read more... )

How could you forget so quickly? I just don't understand how something so incredible and perfect can happen so fast, and within three months you won't even acknowledge it? I don't know what the future holds, but I certainly know that what you said about feelings is true. And I know that things like that don't come around very often, and you will ( Read more... )

less than two weeks until i get to come home and continue what started before i left....

I CAN'T WAIT!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'm sooooo ready to get out of Santa Fe! Christian Bale should be warned.....don't ever go to SANTA FE ( Read more... )

1. I am fixated on my appearance. Sometimes I think I am sooo beautiful, and other times I think I am completely average ( Read more... )

College is amazing. This is the first time I've actually felt like a normal teenager... Since I was in WAPA during high school and pretty much straight into BCC, I never had a regular school experience. Being at Santa Fe is such a blast. I'm going to movie nights in dorm rooms, running around late at night on the Quad, going up to the mountains for ( Read more... )

"This wasn't supposed to be so difficult. I wasn't supposed to be this lonely. I thought it would be easier to pretend. But it's not. It's so bittersweet ( Read more... )

Tomorrow's going to be real long. And Monday too. And however long it takes for them to cast Children of Eden, that'll be long too. I remember last year they called me the next day to offer Fantine, but you never know ( Read more... )

This wasn't supposed to be so difficult. I wasn't supposed to be this lonely. I thought it would be easier to pretend. But it's not. It's so bittersweet.

"What a beautiful mess I'm in..."

What am I going to do when it's all over in a week?

At least I get to be around him.
But I can't seem to forget that I'll never actually have him.

"I am in love with the things that I see in his face. It's a memory I know time will never erase." (Jekyll&Hyde)