so what ive realized now is...we are all growing up. physically and mentally. ive pegged these past few days as the official marker for it. I dont know if its so much growing up as feeling more normal..which comes with its drawbacks. there are people that i am leaving behind and there are people that i realized i should be trying to get closer to ( Read more... )

last night i came to the realization that i have more options than i originally thought. in both aspects. this is going to help me to stop fucking pining and get over it faster. right now all is well and i know that you're going to get what you deserve.;)

Meetin lots of new people...lots of attention so you know that the effort has paid off and motivates you to keep going. Do more open mics and raise your confidence level. Pretend to be more outgoing than you really are so eventually it will be truth. Only then are you allowed to be smug and let go of humble.

NY=good only for shopping and indie/metro boy eye candy(only in the village ( Read more... )

So I would be headed to NY tomorrow and I'm excited. A lot of things running through my mind lately. But hopefully they will be forgotten with the holidays :) I've decided there needs to be some changes in my outlook on things. I've decided to make them over this trip. Because ask yourself, why? and I reply with a smile. oh! and guess what? I'm ( Read more... )

This vinyl sticker with its big block letters. It tells your new friends...That I am a visitor here and I am no longer permanent. And the only thing that keeps me dry, is where I am standing. So thus you and me, we can both finally see it now....

....That I was the one worth leaving.

past few days ( Read more... )

Oh get me away from here I'm dyin', sing me a song to set me free.[Nobody writes them like they used to so it may as well be me];)

Its chilly outside. We made smores on the balcony. I made chocolate chip cookies. It feels good. We will remember this time for the rest of our lives. Its been decided you are too cool. Its been decided I am far too nice to you.

Why is it so hard for people to admit they're wrong? Fatal flaw. along with stupidity. I cant take it anymore. God your a fucking bitch. You have been voted off the island.