Sometimes I miss the smell of Bangkok. That weird mix of sweet and rancid you would get in clouds floating around each other on hot nights walking a urban soi (street) of the city. Encompassed in a single breath would be the perfume of fresh flowers growing wild on the side of the road mixed with low hanging odor of stale water backed up in a ( Read more... )

I never post anything in April, so here we are. Tonight I went out to dinner with Lauren and Cat. It all kind of came together at the last second as Lauren had yoga plans with Cat. It rained and we got Mexican food in our area.

There is something about saying good bye and things ending that are always so complex emotionally. Its those bitter sweet moments in life where you realize suddenly the gravity of saying good bye to a friend who is moving (or you are) where you suddenly feel everything you are about to lose, but you also feel everything you had/have. I had a lot of ( Read more... )

Its late. The only movement left on the streets is the swirl of snow flakes slow sifting out of the atmosphere and on to the city pavement. The only warmth is the warmth of light from the scattered lit windows, contrasting the gray night. If you have never listened to "Explosions in the Sky" give them a shot, their quite good for late night ( Read more... )

Going to Delaware for the last few days was the break I needed. At my Grandmothers house I feel really relaxed, maybe its the clear cold creek with the colorful fall leaves blanketing the bottom of it, or how the sun lit up the tips of the bare tree branches at sunset. Swirls of golden brown bark contrasted on crisp darkening blue sky. Or how the ( Read more... )

This Halloween turned out pretty good in that unintentional way. It was a lot like 2009, in many ways: It was warm, it rained, started with Cat at a bar with her friends and her most recent crush. Like before it was awkward and not what I wanted, so like before I left ( Read more... )

Getting lost in the past somehow seems easier to do when its foggy outside, with the atmosphere nearly dripping with rain. The kind of weather you can feel the moment you open your eyes, that leaves you a little more snuggly fit in your bed. I have not had a day off in 10 days, and today I did absolutely nothing but drown in calming nostalgia of ( Read more... )

So today I spent getting into the mood of being on vacation again. This trip each summer had the purpose of escape for me, to relax and be free. But I think living in my own place this summer has already given me that. So this vacation out here I had to switch gears, and make it about something else ( Read more... )

So once again, as I have done every summer since college (and specifically every August since 2010) I sit at my Uncles house in East Hampton late at nigh writing this post while everyone else sleeps. Every year has been a little different. The first time I came out here my cousins surprised my Uncle for his Birthday, other years I have stayed up ( Read more... )

This whole summer has been about the slow build. I think for the last year or so I have been adrift, hell probably longer then that. Just floating around without much direction. I am not saying I am much better now, but I am improving. This all started as a vow i gave in Newport Beach with the view of an idilic beach town, the sound of crashing ( Read more... )