In the next 11 days, we'll be in Miami Beach, Florida. Somewhat excited just hope we'll be safe since I should have went for Panama City, Florida, oh well. Plus, I've heard good things from reasonable folks, but I never really been to an ocean in my entire life.

Ive been drinking quite bit, but i stopped at 10 pm last night and went to bed. I woke up at 7 am, cuddled and kissed my lover goodbye and drove downtown for jury duty ( Read more... )

Rise above! Black Flag's playing. Man, i just felt a brief second of bliss. For once. Maybe it was the marijuana, but i have to say i honestly liked being around youth even if ill be 30 in two years.

I have Air's Playground Love stuck in my head. I wonder when and where things will feel better?

Maybe, I need to wake up. This life in the midwest is miserable. How can one make friends? Meet people with similar interests? I can go out, but I have no car. Cars for friendship seems like a very pathetic, shitty idea. Well, I'm sober now, and I will be bored and miserable. I should take my anti-depressant and read again ( Read more... )

I'm done with the folly, manipulative, atagonistic bullshit. I play, you play. "Moi je joue
Moi je joue a joue contre joue." That's it, I'm fucking done ( Read more... )

I look back it's easy to remember, and when I tell myself, I didn't do anything wrong. Like anyone else, I really want to be happy. Also, talking to my mother is not a good way to work on life. It's also easier to just ignore negative energy around you verses trying to being combative ( Read more... )

Bored.

So, I need to focus on my energy on better things. I know it's been a while. I get bored easily with my time ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm being walked all over. If this happens again, I'm out. If this happens again, I'm out. If this happens again, I'm out.