today was..mmk...i woke up washed the deck off with the preasure washer (no finger spraying this time lol) then i went to the hospital..i talked with sam and karen (my god parents...shanes parents) it was weird i mean normally sams smiling and happy...i never seen him look so old in my whole life..it was just un-comfertable to be there..i have this ( Read more... )

wow...today was soo weird like all day! raca sleeped over last night and that was cool and i went to volleyball..it was kinda funn..then me and my mom wen to the big dipper (cute lil ice cream store ya'll should go there!) and i was ordering my food and then this girl hedie who played on my b/s/l/p leage last year was working there and idk it was ( Read more... )

its so crazy...life i mean like u can just feel like shit call up ur best friend ball to her and then once u get off the phone and listen to music and the u feel better...i mean i hate it when i feel like no one cares but listoning to things like friends and music kinda makes life livable...the clouds are cleared and the sun is shining kinda now ( Read more... )

wow! im so stuffed! i just ate like a bigein cookies! and yes i MADE THEM! well...kinda..i was gonna help my mom make th batter but then dana called so i had to talk to him...but then i had to pull them out of the oven and put a new patch in so i kinda made them right? okay so today i woke up at like 11:30 and i was kinda mad cuz my sister was ( Read more... )

i have soo much stuff in my mind latly...i mean idk how to describe it...like i was watching clueless (greatest movie ever!) and although it maybe funny to everyone else that movie really got me thinkin...im only 14..i mean if i really think about it thats only 14 i have hopfully many more years to come...i mean if i fuck up my life now with drugs ( Read more... )

i love making wishes that are impossible. i mean theres always taht chance that it will come true that slim chance none the less..but its kinda scary when it does like i wished that i live my life on the edge of my seat and parts of that have come true lol but my greatest wish taht will never come true is the wish that all the ones i care about no ( Read more... )

its amazing how a day can start off so great...so awesome and the in a blink of an eye it all turns up side down...dana called this morning and told me he was talking a shower then he would be over i was soo scared! i mean he doesnt care what i looke like but still i care? im dumb i know! he gets here things are going great...were 4 wheeling ( Read more... )

so today started off ok...i woke up at like 7:30 and went home (sleeped over at amandas last night..super fun girls lol..sounds funny) then i made my whole family breakfast..lol I COOKED! and no one died! it was fun. then me and my daddy went to the auto show..SO COOL! i saw the truck of my DREAMS there! it was so pretty! yellow..of course..chevy.. ( Read more... )

i never knew what it felt like to be sitting there..all alone..wish for someone to care...anyone..someone to say stop..to tell u that theres always a better way..a safer way..a way that u can be proud u took ( Read more... )

Your the only reason i kept playing because i didnt want to disapoint you..i wanted you to have something to tell your friends...i wanted you to love me...but now i relize that you have taken the fun out of it...and that if i were to ever stop you would no longer care about me or love me the way you did before...i was scared of that...well im more ( Read more... )